Awaken to Spirit

THE REAL TRUTH

2012-01-16T11:27:00.000-08:00

NOTE: This was first posted to Facebook in response to comments about the previoius blog post

Just wanted to shout out a huge thank you to all my FB buddies for your support and love.

However, I don't want the true point of my last post to be missed. Remember that the world and the people in it are a mirror to you..in other words, how you are treated, the things that are happening to you are simply a reflection of just how much you love and value yourself.

When things go wrong, don't look for the answers outside of yourself. We all come into this world with contracts we made with our spirit guides and human relationships - we make these contracts so we can learn and grow in the ways we most need. Consequently, if life is getting bumpy, it is because you are being challenged to learn and grow - there is something you need to work on.

Have faith in this...get comfortable, quiet and ask for help. I guarantee you will receive it from God, your guides or angels (whatever you believe in). Listen for that still small voice that will tell you what this problem is trying to get you to learn...

Most importantly, no matter how bad it gets, do not be afraid. Fear is such a low energy that it can block out answers and that keeps the problems front and center. Release your fear, anger and resentment so that you can receive all your answers and all the help that you are meant to receive.

We are never given more than we are capable of handling even when it seems like things are insurmountable. And, we are always, always loved and watched over so we are never alone. The best part of this is that we are self-correcting and made to heal!! The ride may be bumby but it is never dull!!!

When You're Alone and Life is Making You Lonely

2012-01-14T18:50:00.000-08:00

I have had a rough few days. First, I have been sick off and on since Thanksgiving. This is especially hard because my dad needs me to be with him and available. Being sick has forced me to stay home and get well, making me feel incredibly guilty.

Secondly, I have had some tough calls with family ...we have never really been close but when my dad had his stroke, I was hopeful that things would change. They didn't ..in fact, the more difficult the situation becomes, it seems the more cruel family can become as well.

Lastly, I reached out to someone for whom I have always been available and I was basically told that their issues were far more important than mine. I was devastated and feeling so alone. I hardly ever ask anyone for help because I am usually able to get myself out of these crazy places with a lot of prayer and instruction from higher help! This time was different...maybe because I am sick or because I have been under so much stress, I don't know, but I have been truly low, low, low and was so certain that this friend would be there no matter what.

My first reaction was deep hurt and then anger....my second reaction was to write out my feelings and share them. Finally, I got it! Until I love myself enough to attract the right people into my life, I will forever be disappointed. Most of us want to look outside ourselves for what is wrong in our lives..I choose to look in. When I am not attracting everything I believe I want and should be blessed with, then I am doing or not doing something crucial that needs to be looked at.

Most of the time, this comes back to how we truly feel about ourselves. Are we deserving of what we work to achieve? Are we finding friends and/or other relationships that mirror back to us what we think of ourselves, good or bad? The answers are NEVER outside...they are within as is the Kingdom of God. This is not religious in any respect..it is instead a hint to where our true power lies. WITHIN!

But, and this is critical, that power is ONLY surrounded by love and light without ego, expectation or judgment. We cannot access this power if it is bringing someone else to there knees or if it is not truly based in self love that radiates from within us.

So, I ask you...Who are you??? Are you pure love and light or do you expect to be fulfilled by those people and things that are around you? Remember, that which is around us cannot be taken with us into eternity...but love and light are more powerful than anything else and INFINITE!!

Look into your mirror...forgive yourself for everything but take your lessons to heart. And then, when you are clear and free, tell yourself how much you are loved whether or not you are part of a huge group of friends or just a few. Love yourself as you would love your best friend, you will not be disappointed.

The Most Precious Christmas Gift of All

2011-12-20T12:01:00.000-08:00

As many of you know, my father suffered a massive stroke in August of 2011. Despite the pain and difficulty of all this, we have both been blessed with realizing that this is a journey we are both undertaking for the better.

My father has always been extraordinary and although he is quite different from who he was prior to August 18, 2011, he is by far still the most extraordinary man that I have ever known.

As a child, I was always somewhat disappointed by Christmas. I never understood gift giving and receiving as the entire point...I far loved giving more than receiving, but all in all, I was sad when the holiday was over because I felt that everyone, including me, had missed the point of the day.

This Christmas has been frought will flu, nursing homes, financial stress and overall emotional hardship as I do not have my dad home just yet. My hope was that he would spend Christmas at home, but that has not happened despite my intentions...I am learning to surrender yet again and it is hard.

But...and this is one big huge moment in the craziness of it all...last week, I received a Christmas card - from my dad! He had signed it in the nursing home, "With love, Dad." I nearly broke in two...this is by far my favorite card that I have ever received in all my fifty years! I am so grateful that he is still here and was able to sign that card even if he never remembers doing it!

Finally, I understand Christmas and all its meaning ...it is not in the glitter and lights. It is not under the tree. It is not in all the food and the pounds gained. It is in family and love - shared love that transcends all the pain of an entire lifetime. It is in gratitude for being able to love to this depth. And most of all, it is in knowing that we all are Holy Children of a most Loving Creator.

Blessings to all of you this Holiday Season.

Why Did God Let This Happen?

2011-08-17T10:43:00.000-07:00

I often hear people ask during times of tragedy: “Why did God let this happen?” or “If there is a God, why would he let bad things happen?”

The truth is this: God did not let anything bad happen because God created a beautiful, perfect and infinitely loving existence for all of us. God created a universe and world that gives us everything we need in abundance and without pain, injury or illness.

Man, in his/her infinite wisdom, has separated him/herself from God and therefore can only see a world with imperfection, tragedy, illness and death…these are all MAN PERCEIVED, not God Made!

Ask yourself each morning, when you are given another chance at renewal, to see the world as God has made it and not as man has perceived it. It may take some time until you truly see the work of God, but I guarantee you that eventually, you will see a world that is far different from the one you used to believe in.

Love is the Answer

2011-07-23T14:32:00.001-07:00

Some of you know that I was forced to give up my beautiful kitty of 11 years as I looked for housing. With the heatwave and all that was happening, I felt that she needed to be somewhere she could be better cared for. Just last Friday, she was adopted and I was heartbroken as I always thought I would get her back. Amidst my tears, I prayed to understand why I was in this painful situation...the answer came right away - I was to share my beloved Cashew with others who needed to experience the unconditional and divine love that only an animal can bring! My heart is healing knowing this.

The Rainbow Dream Vision of Hope (Prophecies)

2011-06-12T14:35:00.000-07:00

The Rainbow Dream Vision of Hope

Intertribal Medicine Societies of Turtle Island

The Twenty Count: 1993-2012

Make copies of the Rainbow prophecy, and give or send them to people
anywhere on the planet. Then let them be guided by their hearts to do
the same until all planetary citizens are brought to life in the
Rainbow dream, so that we may dream and work together for true peace.

Love, Thunder Woman

Introduction by Aleran

Throughout the ages humanity has sought out the prophecies of the

spiritually gifted to instil a clear hope and vision into life. During

this time many prophecies come to us trying to lead us in many

different directions.

Some prophecy points to disaster, hopelessness and the annihilation

of mankind. But other prophecies create a vision of joyful

transformation through quantum leaps into love and light.

As things stand now, the human race is dreaming a hell.

But as individuals and as a collective humanity it is our potential

to dream of paradise and to create the kingdom of heaven on our Mother

Earth.

Could it be that the pain in our hearts caused by the hell we have

created will spur us on into visions and creations of a world formed

in love?

It is my prayer and dream, along with a multitude of others who

have taught me to dream the Rainbow dream, that each and every one of

you learn to dream both while awake and sleeping, the dream of unity

and love through divine transformation.

This prophecy is a dream and vision that is a potential reality for

mankind. It is not an ultimatum. But it is ours to behold and to

create if we only dare to dream it together.

The Rainbow Dream Vision of Turtle Island

Prophecies of The Native Americans

1993-2012
PART ONE ~

The distribution and giving back to humanity of the Twenty Count.

In the Turtle Island lore we say it is the time of finding one's path

with heart.

The time of seeking perfection, growth and development.

Most importantly the time of trust and innocence, when mythologies of

the world are revealing secrets.

PART TWO ~

The critical time. The time of the animal. The time of Tuwalananie,

the dark force.

The reason for this is that seeds of light have been planted and we

are starting to grow and the teachings are starting to come out and

all those ones who have taught partial truths, who have taught

deliberate lies in history, are going to be threatened by the

awakening of the Rainbow people because the Rainbow people exist in

every country, in every nation, in every land.

The Dark Forces will be threatened and they will use their power and

their power exists in technology. We are going to see new technology

appearing which will be a tremendous threat to the survival of humanity.

We must exert our influence by gathering together and sharing our

ideas and plans for alternative power and for world peace. If we put a

double amount of energy with what we are for, we can change it. We can

change it.

PART THREE ~

The time of human to human communication.

The time the human family finally starts to become human.

There will be more information brought out into open format than has

ever been seen on this planet.

We will re-establish contact in a very knowledgeable way with our

ancestors from the stars.

So mark that down because it will happen. The first contact will be

with the Pleiades and will be totally acknowledged and will be known

to all the world powers. The second contact will be with Sirius.

PART FOUR ~

When truth seekers begin to open the veil of the crack between the

worlds, we will see our memory circles.

Many of the leaders who are trying to keep us locked in the past, will

not function today, will fall.

Many teachers and wise people will be seen for who they are and they

will be the farmers, the labourers and the gas station attendants

because the tagashala will be fully awakened.

People will begin to link up with other people in gathering together

circles.

Many of these will be the so-called 'common people' and not the

teachers you see up there now.

PART FIVE ~
The various winged serpent wheels will begin to turn, to dance once

again and when they do the rainbow lights will be seen in dreams all

over the world and these rainbow light dreams will help awaken the

rest of humanity.

We will sit in a new circle of law.

All civil and social laws will have to be in conformity with natural

laws or the people will not accept them and they will have the

enlightenment necessary to reject those laws.

Science will once again become metaphysics. They will discover four

laws that will help them jump to universal law and transcend the

time-space continuum which is the limitation of the age and once again

we will begin to take our power and to work with rules and laws that

are cosmic laws.

PART SIX ~

We will once again see the way to continue a new dream.

We will be given the road map back to the stars and we will see the

star people come out of the illusion of their two-legged form and into

their actual great sleeper-dreamer form.

A powerful time approaches humanity and its really hard for me to talk

about it.

I am a great dreamer but I don't know if I dream that large.

We will see a real shift in planetary consciousness.

Many of the enemies of the humans will begin to drop away.

We will totally gain the light of the great light wheel.

There will be one humanity, one planet composed of all the different

ways of dancing in complete harmony in the great gathering together

circle.

All the seeds will be planted.

The Earth will have its true reality formed.

It will join the sisterhood of planets, the daughters of Copperwoman

and it will create within itself all forms of all things in harmony

with the everything.

We will see a whole new way of perfection.

There will be plants on this grandmother earth that will give life and

sustenance as never before seen.

Starvation on the earth, all those things will be gone. There will be

total balance and harmony.

PART SEVEN ~

The new race of humans will begin to design their new reality of life

on this planet as they intended it to be when they first came here

from the stars.

We will begin to establish this planet and use the collective

consciousness to hold the power of this space in harmony with the

Great Circle of Twelve and all the planets. There is a whole lot I

don't even know. There is more that I am not supposed to talk about yet.

The dream will be actualised and this planet will hold its space in

the great council of planets and become a part of the universal

enlightened sisterhood and brotherhood of humanity and keepers of the

light circles. It's happened on many planets and it's expected to

happen on a lot of other planets.

There will be a moment when the population will be 'the' Population,

and something great will happen.

This planet will have its design of energy movement guided by all of

humanity living here.

The Great Spirit will leave its seed and the egg of everything here on

this planet and it will create itself 20 times over at the speed of

light and this prophecy ends as I have been given it by the

Grandmothers that I share with you now.

What is it like for you, my extra sensitive travellers?

2011-06-04T17:30:00.000-07:00

I am writing this for all my fellow travellers - those who suffer in pain or from illness and those who are just trying to navigate a world that can be hard to understand. I am one who has experienced both - the pain and illness as well as the horrible confusion caused by being in a world I just don't always understand. Most of the people who find me experience these same things so you are never alone.

Recently, I saw The Green Mile once again. The movie took my breath away, but not for the reasons you might think. For the first time in my life, someone had written what it is like for me to live in my body, with my gifts and sensitivities. I felt such relief because I have been diagnosed with depression and so many other things that label me as "less than". I suspect many of you reading this have been through this as well. You are NEVER "less than".

Here is the speech at the end of the movie when John Coffey (wrongly accused of raping and murdering two young girls) is about to walk "the green mile" to the electric chair and he explains to Paul (the head guard) why he wishes to go through with the execution:

Paul: On the day of my judgement, when I stand before God, and He asks me why did I kill one of his true miracles, what am I gonna say? That is was my job? My job?

Coffey: You tell God the Father it was a kindness you done. I know you hurtin' and worryin', I can feel it on you, but you oughta quit on it now. Because I want it over and done. I do. I'm tired, boss. Tired of bein' on the road, lonely as a sparrow in the rain. Tired of not ever having me a buddy to be with, or tell me where we's coming from or going to, or why. Mostly I'm tired of people being ugly to each other. I'm tired of all the pain I feel and hear in the world everyday. There's too much of it. It's like pieces of glass in my head all the time. Can you understand?

Paul: Yes, John. I think I can.

The Green Mile

written by Frank Darabont, from the novel by Stephen King

Each time I hear this, I want to cry - tears of joy that someone else "gets it" and tears of pain because it is like glass in my head all the time and so many don't get it.

So let's focus on one part of that speech that is truly powerful and may be overlooked: "...and he asks me why did I kill one of his true miracles..." My fellow seekers, that is what we have to remember - we are ALL true miracles of the Creator, whether you believe the Creator is a God or an intelligent energy and force that brings this amazing Universe into existence. Never forget this no matter how hard it gets and it can get pretty hard for those of us who are so sensitive.

It is my belief that we are all part of God/Creator/Force so therefore we have no true reason to suffer - after all, would God punish him/herself on purpose? I try to remember this when I am deep, deep down in the muck and open my eyes to the fact that I must change my perspective if I am to survive the muck. In other words, I try to ask for guidance and to understand why this particularly hard time is part of my life. To date, I have always received THE answer! Not always an answer I wanted or expected, but THE answer.

More than ever, as the world is approaching a huge shift predicted by the Mayans, the Native Americans and many other ancient civilizations, we sensitive souls are needed here on Earth. Dig in and hold on - but always remember as one of God's true miracles you are here for a purpose and here at this particular time because you have proven yourself to be courageous in the face of incredible pain.

I am so honored to know many of you and to have worked with many of you...you give me strength at the times when I need it most. I thank you and I reach out my hand to each and every one of you - take it and then link hands with someone else. Together, we can and will see through the fog to realize we are amidst a paradise that is beyond belief. Namaste.

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2011-04-20T19:07:00.001-07:00

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Which Way is Your Journey?

2011-04-01T14:40:00.000-07:00

Recently, I have been having a tough go of it. And in the midst of this tough go, I met someone who was having a tougher go. As she and I have been creating a friendship, a working relationship and more, we both realized something HUGE today! We (all of us) never move backwards or more importantly, we never stop growing and learning!

Think about that, especially when you are stuck and feel stuck and even more stuck....you cannot stop or go backwards! The Universe will not permit it and the greater force (Creator/Source/God) has set it up so that the Universe is expanding and not retracting - therefore, it too cannot stop or turn around and go back.

This is a beautiful process....a remarkable journey that we are all on and as such, we continue moving through that journey, learning, growing and in our human words, we call that "forward".

However, it is also a human construct to want to believe that backwards does exist. In fact, we have even installed cameras in cars so that we can look forward but go backwards at the same time! Again, totally impossible but our egos tell us we can and must, so that is what we do...all along, these egos prevent us from surrendering to the bigger lesson - that we are here in this dense Earth dimension to learn, to grow, to love and to surrender.

Once we have done this and learned the lessons for this lifetime, we are then moving onto a new process; unfortunately, we have labelled this "death" and considered it for too long an ending. It is NOT an ending, but rather a shift to a new beginning in another form, which is why there is nothing to fear; yet, again as humans we figure out all kinds of ways to prolong life, even unnaturally - desperately fighting against the unknown with little or no faith that something greater than us put an amazing process into being and all we have to do is enjoy the ride!

So, when you have a bad time...when life is hard and seems to be getting harder, you have not failed. You are not stuck - you are still learning and growing no matter what. Allow yourself to relax and realize this from your new perspective...that you are moving in the direction you are meant to. In doing so, in allowing, you become teachable again and that is all that matters.

Stay open, keep the faith and let yourself remain teachable...go with the flow and you cannot go wrong.

Namaste, fellow travellers.

Choosing a healer, spiritual counselor or alternative practitioner

2011-01-11T12:20:00.000-08:00

I have heard from others on more than one occasion about how much money they have spent on charlatans and other con artists proclaiming to be healers or miracle workers! When I was ill and trying to find someone to help me, I also ran up against this issue as well as being told that I would have to empty my bank account to find anyone who would work with me on a regular basis. So, how does one find a healer or practitioner when one is sick, or in pain and desperate?

First of all, try to do your homework when you are not in the peak of pain or desperation. I firmly believe that some of the people out there, who are doing this work to satisfy their own egos or wallets, can sense a person who is in trouble; they will take advantage of this state, so try to call when you are feeling your strongest. Another suggestion is to have your spouse, partner or friend on the phone with you to monitor the call and/or ask questions for clarification. (Make sure you tell the practitioner that you have someone on the line with you - don't try to engage in trickery yourself as it is not worth it in the long run.)

Make a list of questions and concerns ahead of time, then follow your outline. If you prepare yourself before your phone call, you will feel more in charge and capable. This will also be "picked up" by the practitioner and your results will likely be more truthful. Additionally, once the first call is coming to a close, tell the practitioner that you are going to take some time to think the conversation over and allow it to sink in. Let them know that if you have further questions, you will call them back. Gauge their reaction to this. An honest practitioner, who is truly in the business of helping others, will encourage you to take this step and really be certain you are ready to do the work; someone who is just after your money or adulation may pressure you to commit right away. Now, don't confuse that with someone who may indicate that he/she is really busy and has a tough schedule; there is a clear difference when someone is trying to work you into the schedule vs. someone who is pressuring you to "sign up" or become part of the flock!

Obviously word of mouth referral is one of your safest and best bets; however, remember that just because your best friend got wonderful results with someone, you may not resonate with that person as highly. When you meet the practitioner in person or on the phone, pay attention to your "gut". Feel whether or not the fit is right. Do you feel comfortable with this person? Do you feel that you will be honest and dedicated to the process?

Most importantly, be sure and ask what the process is!! Know what type of work you are getting into - is it talking with someone or will they be putting hands on you? Do they channel? Do they use tarot cards or other methods of reading you? Are you comfortable with what they do? If you are not comfortable or you have any fears, bring these up immediately and ask for clarification or assurance. Anyone who is worth their salt will tell you why they use a process or why they don't and if there are any precautions that you should take or be aware of. If your fears or concerns are dismissed, then RUN! Find someone who will respect and value you from the initial meeting. Do not feel you have to please your practitioner - that is not your job nor should you be made to feel that it is.

There are some thoughts about people who charge for healing or spiritual work. One side feels that this type of help should never be mixed with money, but others are OK with a fee being charged. When I work, I charge for my time and not for my gifts as they are just that "gifts". Additionally, I work with a sliding scale that sometimes slides right off the chart! I am here to help others because I was given the gift of healing. I am not here to pad my wallet. That being said, I do need to eat and keep a roof over my head as well, but I will always do my best to accommodate someone who really wants help and wants to change his/her life. Talk with your practitioner about all of this and again, use your "gut"; make certain that if you are paying for help, healing or transformation, you can focus on the work at hand and not on the payment!

I am also sensitive to this issue of money because I was ill for many years and could not find anyone who would help me without charging full fare. This prevented me from finding the help I required. In the long run, this was a blessing, because it forced me to find the answers within myself and that was exactly what I needed!

Many of us need a little guidance or direction and that should be available without having to sacrifice the first born child! Anyone you speak to should be somewhat sensitive to this and if not, then ask why. There is no harm in understanding their reasoning for not wanting to make a trade or offer a discount. As long as you ask with an open mind and a respectful tone, you should receive an honest and respectful answer.

While these hints can help you can find an alternative practitioner, you must first be ready to do the work and make the commitment to getting well or making changes. If you are not ready, then wait. Most importantly, if you are hoping that someone else is going to "FIX" you, then you are not ready. There is no one that I know who is powerful enough to fully heal or fix anyone without that person doing some of the work him or herself. If someone says they are that powerful, then again, I would say RUN!

Much of our journey in life is to take on challenges and find the answers from within. A healer or therapist can assist you with this, but the bottom line is that the work is yours to do. I have never heard of any magic than can instantaneously fix or heal someone without their participating somehow. Once you are ready and willing, I can promise you that this process of healing or changing will be something amazing and beautiful.

So, put your comfortable walking shoes on and get ready for a wonderful journey!

Native American Ten Commandments

2010-12-05T21:48:00.001-08:00

"Native American Ten Commandments"

....Sacred Instructions Given By The Creator To Native People At The Time Of Creation....

Treat the Earth and all that dwell thereon with respect.

Remain close to the Great Spirit.

Show great respect for your fellow beings.

Work together for the benefit of all Mankind.

Give assistance and kindness wherever needed.

Do what you know to be right.

Look after the well being of mind and body.

Dedicate a share of your efforts to the greater good.

Be truthful and honest at all times.

Take full responsibility for your actions.

THE TRUE PEACE

2010-12-05T21:30:00.000-08:00

The True Peace

The first peace, which is the most important, is that which comes within the souls of people when they realize their relationship, their oneness, with the universe and all its powers, and when they realize that at the center of the universe dwells Wakan-Taka (the Great Spirit), and that this center is really everywhere, it is within each of us. This is the real peace, and the others are but reflections of this.
The second peace is that which is made between two individuals, and the third is that which is made between two nations.

But above all you should understand that there can never be peace between nations until there is known that true peace, which, as I have often said, is within the souls of men.

Black Elk, Oglala Sioux & Spiritual Leader (1863 - 1950)

TWO WOLVES - A CHEROKEE PARABLE

2010-12-05T21:25:00.001-08:00

Two Wolves - A Cherokee Parable

An old Cherokee chief was teaching his grandson about life...

"A fight is going on inside me," he said to the boy.

"It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves."

"One is evil - he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, self-doubt, and ego.

"The other is good - he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith.

"This same fight is going on inside you - and inside every other person, too."

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, "Which wolf will win?"

The old chief simply replied,

"The one you feed."

Expectations, Entitlement & Ego

2010-11-08T14:11:00.000-08:00

Recently, it was brought to my attention that I have exceedingly unrealistic expectations of how the world should behave! I have known this for some time, but was unable to really pin down why I am like this and have always been obsessed with fairness and justice. Part of why this is so important is because I am never seeing the world as it is; instead, I am always hoping or expecting the world to be different. By doing this, I am setting myself up for disappointment at every turn.

Because I have no control over others, I cannot simply wish their behavior to change and take it personally when it does not; however, this is how I have been living for many years. What I have discovered is profound: I have been handed (by virtue of the affluence which I was born into) a very easy, safe and comfortable life. I feel entitled to be treated as I treat others no matter what - this is my ego going strong; I am trying to control the outcome of every situation so that I remain feeling at ease, safe and comfortable. When something goes against what I believe should be happening, I am deeply disappointed and struggle with trying to make sense of this betrayal perpetrated on me.

All of this comes down to one huge piece of my puzzle:

Fundamentally, I did not grow up liking or loving myself for me. I learned to people please and as such, was only validated from the outside in. Although this was a manipulation of others, it was also terribly misleading for me. I became dependent on things outside of myself to validate every part of my being. If I had loved myself and knew this at the core of my being, I could experience any injustice but know that it was never about me personally! I could see the weakness in the other person, but let it go because it was never about me. Instead, I would replay the scene over and over again in my head and try to understand why things did not go my way. I would have conversations in my head trying to figure out how to convince someone to see things my way and validate me by doing this.

I have been held hostage by this my entire life. I believed early on that anothers bad behavior was purposely aimed at me and I took it personally; I was convinced that if I were more worthy or valuable, this unfair or unjust situation would never be part of my world. I lived in a constant state of let down, disappointment, and sadness for myself due to my proven unlovability.

My wise friend (who I am just getting to know) learned at an early age that another person's bad behavior was not going to define or undermine him! This bad behavior illustrated their weaknesses and nothing about him. What a beautiful gift! To know yourself so deeply and with such reverence that you can allow others to be exactly who they are going to be and it is ok, because you are enough!

Additionally, because my friend is enough and values himself, he does not overeat or drink to excess or engage in any behavior that is self destructive! Can you imagine? Eating properly and exercising properly not because someone tells you that it is good for you, but because you celebrate yourself on such a high level that you cannot behave differently! This just boggles the mind in the Western world and isn't that sad?

Many in our society earn distinction and celebrity by being more and more self-destructive in entertaining ways. We celebrate and pay respects to those young artists who have died early after abusing their body, mind and spirit. Of all things, to show respect to someone who did not value themselves enough to treat their beautiful and awesome being with the highest regard.

Along with expectations, entitlement goes ego or arrogance. We believe our way is correct and part of our entitlement or higher purpose. How dare we decide what others must feel, do or say! This is so prevalent in affluent areas, but we assign this entitlement mentality to those in poorer situations as if to deflect from what we know is true of ourselves. How many times have we thought that someone does not deserve to collect welfare or subsidy because we know better how to help them? Maybe we have a theory, but what makes us the one who knows exactly what their situtation requires?

So what is the answser? I believe in my case it is focusing on learning how to love myself so fully that I do not have any voids within me. From this point of personal strength, I am then no longer concerned with what others do or do not do as they cross paths with me. I am only taking care of myself and that is job enough.

Additionally, as I take care of myself by loving and respecting who I am, I can treat others as I wish to be treated but not expect to be treated. Instead, I do this free and clear of ANY expectation that I must or should receive the same. I give openly without expectation of anything in return and that is enough for me. Instead of attaching an expectation of entitlement which could end in disappointment, I stay in the perfection of the moment where I am fully alive and present, offering love to another because that is reward in itself - this is what I celebrate now without needing any assurance of what the future will bring or living in any fear of what the past was about.

I am free!

Love Must Be Balanced

2010-09-19T12:31:00.000-07:00

Hello My Fellow Seekers,

Well, color me violet and indigo! I had a moment of sheer and divine epiphany again! Isn't this great?

So, I am sitting here re-reading a book called Messages From the Masters (Brian Weiss, MD) and there is a story about Elisabeth Kubler Ross and her mother who had a stroke and died four years later after suffering terribly by not being able to take care of herself. The mother was a woman who always gave to others freely, but never was able to freely receive. After she died, her daughter Elisabeth was VERY angry with God over what happened; one day during a regular meditation, she heard a divine voice ask her why she was so angry. She replied that God had betrayed her mother. God answered that her mother was NEVER betrayed, but instead offered the option of learning how to receive love in only four years as opposed to having to die and return for another lifetime learning how to receive love as someone who was chronically ill or impaired. Love must be balanced. This was a true gift to her mother!

In that moment, I realized something HUGE! I have been writing and blogging all summer about fear and about my family that doesn't understand my work and their roles in my life as people who also have fear, etc. What I have failed to do is just receive their love for me! Despite the fact that they may do things for me in ways that are different from what I want, they are still doing something...in their own way, they have loved me and in my own way, I failed to accept this and receive it openly and willingly!

This inability to receive is part of the reason why things have been so difficult for me. Until I was unable to receive love freely wherever it was being given, I was going to have to keep learning the lesson the hard way!

How many of us do this and don't realize we are blocking gifts of love with our own struggle? If we stop struggling for just a moment and ask for clarity, we may be able to see what we have been missing! I know I just did.

Thank you for the lesson!

Namaste

More Insights, More Surrender & More of This Divine Life!

2010-09-17T03:25:00.000-07:00

I operate my life and my relationships according to the following insights:

1. The physical universe is an actualization of my thoughts.
2. If my thoughts are cancerous, they create a cancerous physical reality.
3. If my thoughts are perfect, they create a physical reality brimming with LOVE.
4. I am 100% responsible for creating my physical universe the way it is.
5. I am 100% responsible for correcting the cancerous thoughts that create a diseased reality.
6. There is no such thing as out there. Everything exists as thoughts in my mind.

These insights are part of an ancient healing technique from Hawaii called Ho’oponopono.
Ho'oponopono is about taking full responsibility for your life and all the good or bad circumstances in it.

Recently, I have posted a lot about fear. The reason I have done this is to impart to you how all pervasive this emotion is in our society today and how damaging its effects can be. Over the last few weeks, I have been going through a great deal of pain with even more growth and insight...such a beautiful blessing.

I want to share some of these more recent insights with you. Take a look and see how you might be dealing with the world, remembering that your world is really your own creation and as such, it can be re-created at any time!!!

Before you change your world, you need to be deeply honest about how you have constructed it thus far. Once you examine your current world, you can then take steps to discard what you don't like and create anew, what you do like!

Truly empowering.

Friend or Foe

This might sound like the most simple concept in the world, yet it took a dear friend to help me see it:

Do you see the world as a friendly place or a hostile place?

The answer to this may explain numerous things to you...I for one have grown up seeing the world as a hostile and threatening place. It was not until today when she said this question to me, that I got “it”! And by “it” I mean that everything I was doing in life has been premised on the fact that I need to protect myself from the world. WOW...that is an exhausting task!

Now the reason this is so powerful is that my subconscious mind had taken the idea that the world is a hostile place and kept it as truth. No matter what I did consciously to see or do differently, my subconscious mind had the real programming and would not allow me to break through this reality.

Consequently, I was unable to allow myself to receive freely because I was unintentionally blocking all friendly and good things by this subconscious programming.

I could spend time telling you how I ended up believing this, but that is really not important – it is interesting but not terribly helpful to ending the problem. The minute my friend said that I was blocking out the good by this view that the world is unfriendly, I woke up! Although I may have known what I was doing intellectually, my essence or spirit was not understanding it until that moment when I realized, “oh, she is right.” “Seeing the world as hostile has kept me from really enjoying the fruits of what I do.” After all, how could anyone receive anything from a world that seems to be a threat?

And even more important, anyone who believes that this world is a hostile place is by definition not living connected to God/Source/Creator. God or Source would not create such a place to begin with so even though I felt as if I were living side by side with God, I was not...instead, I was living in an alternate dimension where all was negative and angry.

Sweet Surrender

I cannot tell you how often I have used the word “surrender” in the last few months; I said it or thought it many, many times. Despite how much I used that word, I never actually understood what I meant by it! I was certain of one thing: Once I surrendered, I would finally be free of this gripping financial fear issue and the constant struggle with my family to understand and know me in my current role of intuitive, healer and spiritual adviser. So there I would sit in meditation, trying desperately to surrender and to feel that release. I craved that freedom that I just knew would engulf my whole being and then I would know that I had turned the corner. Try, try as I might, that freedom and surrender just would not come!

In fact, I kept actually feeling a physical block from surrender. I was working as hard as I could...trying to get there, but something kept blocking me from achieving it and so I worked even harder trying to get there, to that illusive surrender.

Then today, while reading about light workers, I was thinking about all those wonderful souls that I work with who (like me) are light workers when suddenly, BOOM, I felt it! I knew what it was in an instant! The IT was surrender! I had just surrendered fully!

Right then and there, I realized that surrender was not something I had to actively move towards or work at. All I had to do was move out of my own way and let God come into me! What I mean is this: I often talk about having a relationship with Source/Creator/God and how personal and intimate this must be. That is true. You must cultivate a relationship with Source that allows you to go there and be with Source when you need to. But, what I have left out is the following: You must allow God to come into you! This is the surrender. This is the place where you simply allow and KNOW from within and without that all you do, say, be and feel is from God/Source/Creator. From that moment on, as you move out of the way, life is no longer about you and control or ego; that part of you has surrendered (stepped aside) and is now replaced by God/Source/Creator!

And when it happens, oh my! When you release everything and know deep, deep down that it will be alright because you are no longer flying your plane; instead, you have turned that plane called LIFE over to the most sophisticated and powerful auto-pilot around!! You can sit back and glide - just learning and being because literally you and the father are one! Finally.

In these last few months, I knew something was wrong, but I did not realize it was the fundamental point of once again releasing control. In all the struggle and fear, I had taken back my ego and in doing so, my ego began holding me hostage.

“What will I do? What should I do? Should I get a “real” job like everyone is telling me to do? Why is this so hard...why can't this be easy ?” Mind chatter would go on and on... and on.

On top of all that, I began to resent people that I perceived as being responsible for my downfall...my family who was not supporting me and never had; my clients who were not following through when they had opted to work the month, but then canceled on me at the last minute. Once again, although I knew better, I was obsessed with everything outside of me; not only was I obsessed, but I was trying to fix, control or judge all of it. By doing this, I was once again imprisoned in negativity and powerlessness. Aarggghhhhh!!!

In the moment when I surrendered, I knew myself to be one with Creator/God/Source; instantly, all my resentments, worries and fears slipped easily away into some abyss no longer connected to anything to do with me. I am free!

So, remember that to surrender, you don't have to work at anything or aim for something or get somewhere. All you need to do is literally get out of your own way and invite your God/Creator/Source into that wide open space and become one with you. From this place of wholeness, you can know and be pure consciousness and bliss.

I am sharing with you, in order, the more recent epiphanies that I have had....here is the last piece of my big puzzle:

Crushing Cruelty

The other day I received an incredibly cruel and hateful letter from my landlord in response to my giving notice and explaining why I was leaving. I almost printed the letter here so you could see how venomous this was! I was shocked by the letter and its sentiment because I had no idea that I was disliked this intensely; for months, all the communications had told me that I was the most kind and considerate tenant ever!

What bothered me even more was the anger that was being poured into this piece of paper as if unloading on me would cure the deep fear the author was clearly experiencing. We have spent so many years being told that we must speak our truth as if being sure to blame someone else will release what we are feeling. Trust me, it doesn't. You will never be able to let all that negativity out of you until you actually take responsibility for creating it in the first place.

What I know is this: I may make mistakes but how someone else feels about me is THEIR issue, not mine as I have no control over their emotional state. After reading the letter, I was sad because I had no idea that the level of hostility towards me went so deep; had I known, I would have left months earlier. I never want to be in a situation where I am not wanted that much!

When I responded, I did so in kindness because the only thing I can control is how I feel, what I do and what I say; therefore, I am not going to respond to anger and hate with that in return. Instead, I will wrap it in love and energy with the intention of diffusing the power of it so that my body is not negatively affected by it.

Being able to do this was a result of all the work I have done over the years on learning about my purpose for being here and how to elevate my consciousness. I know that I am 100% responsible for changing anything in my life that I do not like; it it not someone else' responsibility to fix me. I could clearly see what was theirs to handle and what was mine.

Cells have memory.

Ok..so the truth of the matter, is I started to really get overwhelmed by the hostility directed at me in that letter. In becoming overwhelmed, I right away went back into fear. Despite all the work I have done and all the continued awareness, it is very easy for my body, mind and spirit to revert to old patterns. Even if I have released what I believe are the guts of those patterns, there are still remnants in my subconscious that I may not know about until these are brought forward into my conscious mind; however, the beauty of doing this work is knowing that I will have the opportunity to clear everything if I just keep going!

My body and spirit responds in the way it best remembers and until I change that, then I am stuck. So, much of what is happening now is simply a result of my past thinking and fear about the world. I get stuck in the subconscious belief that I am just not ok here. I have constructed a reality that, of course, will come after me since that is what I fear deep down. Also, having come from a fear-filled, overprotective family, I have created a pattern of relying on this family to bail me out of difficult situations. The result of doing this is a loss of courage and confidence that I can fall, pick myself up and continue on. Mistakes become too big and then I am too fearful of making them.

I had a realization through this experience that despite being sober for nearly four years, I have been unconsciously recreating those same patterns of addiction in other things. When I find myself in a crisis, I begin to panic and feel paralyzed. Then, I may decide I need to approach my father and ask for his help or to have him solve the problem. I agonize for days about having to, once again, admit my “failure” and go to him for help. This is true physical agony. Once I go to him, I receive the solution and I can release all the anxiety. Can you see how this is a little like an alcoholic agonizing over trying to not drink all day, then finally giving in and releasing all that pent up fear and anxiety once the alcohol hits the blood stream?

One of the hardest parts of life for an addict or alcoholic is overcoming the idea that stable is boring. For most of us, we have lived lives of extreme ups and downs. Stability is truly the unknown and if it is known to us, it seems dull. Although I have give up substances, I allowed the old patterns of chaos to creep back into my life and sabotage me. BUT...and this is the big BUT, I was able to see it! And, I was able to see it in a lot less time than it used to take. Most importantly, because I am taking responsibility for 100% of my life, I am able to CHANGE this and that is divine.

Today, I am been able to let go and move on to living a life as an adult woman who is true divinity as well.

Even though this may seem to take a great deal of time and a lot of hard work (both of which are true), the end result is living a life that is empowered, healthy and joyful with deep peace as well. Raising your consciousness so that your life is of a higher dimension, as well as having the tools to deal with all challenges is nothing short of miraculous and why not? Life should be celebrated and enjoyed...danced to and revelled in...the years go by in an instant and we must teach our children how precious these years are and how awesome this thing called Earth, Gaia is as well! Dance with me!
Not my will, but thine. Thank you for the lesson. - Paul Solomon

Dance with Joy, Celebrate in Awe and Be your Bliss!

2010-08-23T12:22:00.000-07:00

I want to follow up my many musings about fear with a short, but to the point post about bliss....After all the fear drained out of me the other day, it was replaced with faith and by association bliss!

One of the attitudes I had stuffed back into my closet since I felt that I was “less than” was joy. I have not been celebrating and living in joy as I can and should do. If our reality really is reflected back to us, and I believe it is, then it is imperative that we celebrate and live in bliss today so that what is mirrored back to us tomorrow is equally as amazing!

I think many of us undergoing a spiritual journey tend to become very serious about our world and practice. I know I do. Often times, I forget that one ingredient essential to this entire process – Awe! I fail to celebrate when I wake up in the morning that I am so blessed to be able to create an entirely new day in which to dance, skip and play – or do cartwheels in the park!

Part of the problem is our failure to live in the now. Often times when I wake up, I am carrying yesterday or many yesterdays with me and that is a lot of baggage to have when you want to dance or skip or play! It is crucial that we treat each day as a new beginning and free of all our yesterdays. Additionally, this new beginning must not be wrapped in any fear of the future either. Tomorrow has not yet come, so it bears no influence on today's start up.

Another problem some of us have is being results or goal oriented. I know, I know ...we spend our entire lives being told we must form, set and reach our goals, but there is something very wrong with this approach. We fail to enjoy the journey or the process of getting where we want to go. When we miss what is happening along the path, we have missed an entire lifetime of things to be grateful for.

Often, I am so focused on what I want to achieve in meditation or healing that I forget to be present during the actual process. Most importantly, by focusing only on the goal, I can be very disappointed if my goal is not reached; I always have to remind myself that I am not the one healing...God is doing the work and it is God's will, not mine that matters. Since the outcome is not up to me, then I might as well enjoy the actual time spent getting wherever we are going!

Also, when we are so sensitive, we tend to have developed different methods of protecting ourselves by being defensive. I am guilty of this a lot...it usually shows up in my being isolated. When I first began my journey, I was isolated because I needed to work and study or pray; however, now I find that I often stay isolated to protect myself from being so sensitive and experiencing hurt in the outside world. This is a tough struggle – having enough faith that you know you are safe, but staying sensitive and empathic enough that you do your most good for others.

Many masters speak of seeing the world through God's eyes. I realized this morning as I was beginning another day, that to see this world through God's eyes would mean that I was full of bliss and excitement. Why blissful? Why wouldn't I see all the mistakes that man has made and feel sorrow? Because God does not have judgment or regret! Those are man/woman's emotions. God has only the purest love for all creation and as such could never see what is wrong...only what is right!

I have made a commitment to see what is right with the world and not what is wrong with it. I will decide to live in bliss, passion and joy for my opportunity to know and love as God does.

Won't you join me?

The Importance of Being Fearless

2010-08-20T11:18:00.000-07:00

The Importance of being Fearless

For as long as I can remember, I have been afraid. Afraid of something, but I don't always know what that something is. I only know that this fear has trapped me, influenced every decision and action in my life and come close to taking my life as well. I cannot count the opportunities I have missed or walked away from due to this fear.

Even as a very young child, I was tremendously afraid. I was terrified of sirens and other loud noises. 4th of July was my nightmare! Going to see fireworks nearly unhinged me. My first memory of kindergarten is of crying hysterically outside the door while my mom bargain and bribes me to let go of her and go inside! This separation anxiety never really left me and reared its ugly head at the most inopportune times, such as sleep overs – usually resulting in my calling my mom or dad to come pick me up from my friend's house in the middle of the night. When I was thirteen, we went to visit my mother's family in Kansas. I was such a trembling ball of fear that my uncle who was a good ole boy, hunter type with three girls and two boys, begged my family to send me to them for a summer so that he could “toughen me up”.

Lately, I have been in such fear of financial ruin that I have become almost paralyzed by it. Let me walk you through my crazy thought process based on this fear. I have had to borrow money to survive and each time I need to ask for help, I am almost physically ill. I put off asking until I am nearly on empty. I also fight with myself about why I am failing to manifest what I want and need in my life when I know how to do this. It seems that I am able to manifest almost everything, except complete financial independence. After I have struggled with myself over all of that, I go to a darker place. In this place, I see myself as a burden to my family and others. I am a failure of the highest proportion - someone who will never get out of this horrible cycle...I even fantasize about being gone – being done, so no one will have to bother with me anymore – so I will no longer be a burden. The cycle of fear, anger and punishment keeps itself going and going and going until there seems to be no way out other than something extreme.

Now given the work that I do and all that I know, you would think that I would naturally just fall back on my faith. Wrong! The other issue I was having was trying to replace this huge unidentified fear with a blanket of faith...this was not working either. I had read everything I could get my hands on and done all the exercises to try and overcome this issue with faith. But, my fear was so deeply embedded in me that until I really understood what I was afraid of, I could not simply try to overpower the fear with faith.

But, I digress...let me tell you the entire fear story....

Perhaps the worst part of being such a fearful child was learning how to manipulate others into giving me what I wanted and therefore never having to learn how to walk through that fear. I was always able to find a way to quit or stop short of having to face my fear and this behavior was usually supported by my mother; of course, she had no way of knowing that this would haunt me later in life. Long story short, I was overprotected and guarded my entire life. I never grew up, nor learned how to face life on my own in a complete and mature way. My fear kept me a child and as such, I stayed completely dependent on my family rather than finding my own family to start and work towards.

In order to deal with this fear, I learned to control every aspect of my life including people. I became the A+ student, the teacher's pet, the “people-pleaser”. Even though my peers were not that impressed, I knew I had to please the adults at all costs. In high school, I was blessed with swimming talent and became the first freshman to swim varsity that year, breaking records left and right. Suddenly, I was incredibly popular with teachers, parents and finally, my peers. When I lost a uniform sweater that I was particularly attached to, I formed an intention in my mind that I would, at all costs, find that sweater if it took me the entire year! It didn't and I did find it. I share this with you to illustrate just how controlling I was in an effort to avoid the fear that chased me.

Everything came unglued for me when I started college. My entire high school social life was focused on my boyfriend (a track star to my swimming star) who I met when I was fourteen. He was one year older and together, we were going to save the world or at least, save the youth in the world! We were focused, motivated and totally committed. When he left for college that year before me, I lost my focus and commitment. I stopped swimming, tried out for the senior play and made it, started dating someone who was considered a “bad boy” (but wasn't) and somewhere in there, I fooled myself into thinking that I had rid myself of that awful fear – finally!

But, fear is a tricky business. If you don't face it, you don't end it...you cannot run from it and you cannot hide from it. You might be able to lull it into a corner where it sits quietly waiting for you to forget it is there and that is exactly what I did. I forgot about it until it got tired of sitting in that corner.

When I went off to college, I was a prime target for that fear. I no longer had parents asking me to achieve something. I no longer needed to perform for my teachers and make them happy. I was enrolled at UC Berkeley where everyone, especially as a freshman, was anonymous. The school was too large for there to be any other arrangement. At the time, I didn't realize this, but every one of my reasons for being were gone and suddenly I was lost. I had no idea how to create a life for myself. Most importantly, I didn't really even know who I was or what I wanted because I had spent so much time being defined by the people that I could please.

Over time, controlling the fear didn't work anymore and I was becoming depressed, anxious and angry. I had found therapy and a way to blame all of this dysfunction on everyone else. Unfortunately, that approach never really worked and certainly didn't free me from the fear; it only made me angrier.

Most importantly, the amount of time that I dedicated to avoiding fear kept me from finding out who I was and what I really wanted in this world. That made me even angrier – but at whom?

When my mother died in 1991, I was thirty years old and convinced that my fear of losing her is what caused her to die young. I remember noticing when my mom died what an impression she had made on everyone. People who only knew her briefly cried about her passing; the sad thing is she never knew just how much her light shown in this world. You see, she was also living in fear. She lived in fear her entire life and as a consequence, she never realized just how special she was to this world.

I look back at my twenties and thirties and realize the same thing. Although I made a huge impact on certain people in my life, I could never enjoy who I was because I really did not believe I was enough. So by the time my mother died, I was already a wreck. Add in my even deeper depression and anger and I was just searching for any way out. I found it in illness and chronic physical pain. The answer I thought, was in treating that physical pain and illness with a correct diagnosis, appropriate medical intervention and, of course, mind-numbing narcotics. Once again, I found a way to sedate the fear and return it to the corner.

All of this is something I am sharing with you because I want you to search your own story. Find out where you are hiding from fear and what that fear is about. Our entire world is built on and ruled by fear – fear that there is not enough, fear of differences and mainly, a fear that none of us will ever be enough. The media and governments keep this fear alive and use it to their advantage. The only way to keep the majority of people under the control of an elite few is to frighten the masses. Once they are sufficiently frightened, then this elite can swoop in and assure the panicked ones that they have an answer. The truth is that there is no real answer except to realize that there is really nothing to fear. Failing that, the elite few will always retain the power and it is in their best interest to maintain the illusion of fear so that the masses will remain submissive.

What are the results of fear in a society? I have already discussed control and anger. The other problem is judgment. People who are fearful are constantly working to identify a possible threat and that is usually other people. In order to stay one step ahead of the threat, we need to know what that threat is or who it is and what that person or persons is about. So we judge. We size them up to see if we can take them on or do we need to run away (fight or flight).

Often times, we first try to use ego to overpower our fear; in an effort to fool ourselves into thinking we are not the ones with a problem, we focus on others and judge continuously. By doing this, we always can blame someone else for our lack of power in life...we are the victim. Unfortunately, after a period of time, we find that we are not receiving the same satisfaction or escape from this pattern and we are forced once again, to look at ourselves.

I have also watched people acquire and hoard money in an attempt to control or diffuse their fear. The idea being that if they have enough cash flow, they will never be in a position to face something they cannot control or fix; however, this again is just avoiding the inevitable. There is never enough money to keep bad things from happening in life.

Control, anger, judgment, etc. all of these are very low frequency emotions. When we stay in anger, judgment and fear, we are vibrating as energy at a very low rate; this is what can cause illness in the body after a period of time. I would venture to say that, like me, most of my clients are incredible perfectionists who control every part of their lives as a result of the terrible fear they are living in.

Most importantly, fear and love are diametrically opposed. One cannot live in both at the same time. As long as you are running from or not facing your fear, you will never be able to truly find and stay in love. You might experience love for a period of time and during that time you will have raised your vibration high enough to feel that you are free from your fear, but it cannot last. Eventually, that fear will show itself and cause you to plummet to a low frequency once again. The two simply cannot occupy the same space for any length of time. Unfortunately, fear has been given so much power in most of our lives that it will win out.

When we have established a pattern over a lifetime, that pattern, even if it is detrimental to us, becomes familiar and what we know; leaving that well worn path can be more frightening and painful than the pain we are experiencing from the pattern itself and that is most often why people do not change. It is only through inspiration or desperation that we are prone to seek out a different way of being.

There are lots of resources out there that promise to help you eliminate fear! I have read and tried to use many of them, but to no avail. Change can happen in an instant, but it is the time leading up to that instant that usually takes the longest! People will change for one of two reasons – inspiration or desperation. In my case, sometimes it takes a bit of both!

Today, the fear was too great for me to continue the way I was going. I have developed heartburn which I have never had before. I am grinding my teeth and experiencing stomach pains. All the result of fear. Something had to change, but what? Finally, that small voice gave me the way...”Walk through your fear, beginning to end. See just what you are afraid of if you run out of money or don't have enough money.”

I forced myself to walk through this entire fear from beginning to end. What was I really afraid of? Am I more afraid of asking for help and appearing to be unsuccessful to my family or what is the fear really about? I thought it through slowly and in detail, from beginning to end – no money, becoming homeless, being afraid of living alone on the streets, being attacked, dying on the streets...Wait a minute, dying on the streets. And then, BOOM...it hit me! If the end result either way was death (from dying on the streets or suicide) what was the big deal? Just what was I so afraid of?

I was afraid of being afraid! That was it! And that was all it was...my fear of my fear! Once I saw this and felt it inside my essence, all the fear that I had kept for years just drained out of my body and as it did, I was lighter, relieved of all that burden!

So...there you have it. Fear of Fear! Remember when we were kids and there was a monster under the bed or in the closet? It inevitably grew larger and larger if we stayed in our beds and did not face it. But, once we found the flashlight and summoned up our courage to get out of bed, we found there was no monster at all – we had been afraid of being afraid!

I urge you all to take time to journal, draw or talk about your fear. Identify it...keep searching until you really, really find what it is you are afraid of and then walk it through from beginning to end. What is the absolute worst case scenario? See all of it in detail and when you get to the end, ask yourself if that worse case scenario is really all that bad?

David Hawkins in Power vs. Force states that every fear boils down to the fear of death. Once we eliminate that fear, we can be free from all the other fears in our life. Think about it...really digest that fear that you carry and decide if it is worth lugging it around or if maybe, just maybe you are only afraid of being afraid. And if so, then get out of bed and shine a light on that monster. I assure you, it will disappear instantly!

And the most beautiful part of eradicating fear? Faith. Once you allow that fear to drain out of your body, you can then fill up that space with faith and all that brings – blessings, comfort and miracles. Not a bad trade!

Akashic Field & Spirit Guides - An Explanation

2010-08-19T00:03:00.000-07:00

This is one of the best descriptions of the Akashic Field (records) and how spirit guides work that I have read...take a look!! Namaste.

The Awakening - Akashic Records

Derek Redmond 1992- Never give up!! .mp4

2010-08-16T13:17:00.000-07:00

Someone was kind enough to send this to me when I was having doubts...I share this with you because it says more than I could ever say in words. You are enough, you are loved and you must finish your race - never quit before the miracle. Namaste.

Some of my best friends and helpful healers in their own right!

2010-08-15T20:29:00.000-07:00

Cashew the Kitty Kat (Maine Coon rescue) and Zen Meditator!!

2010-08-15T20:28:00.000-07:00

I am sooo relaxed....this is the life.
Wilbur (belongs to couple in the front house)

2010-08-15T20:26:00.000-07:00

I love my pink Easter Bunny, so snuggly.
(Cashew the Kitty Kat - Mom's best friend)

2010-08-15T20:25:00.000-07:00

Aaahhh...sleep.
(Cashew the Kitty Kat)

Nick Vujicic :: Attitude is Altitude :: No Arms, No Legs, No Worries

2010-08-15T09:02:00.000-07:00

As many of you know, I have been struggling recently with my work and wondering whether or not I can continue due to not having financial resources after years of illness and then a sinking economy. In addition, I also battle my family who do not understand or support my work since I am not making ends meet most of the time. Last night was particularly difficult as I experienced a truly "dark night of the soul" and was not sure how I would be able to get through this week...This morning I woke up to my newsletters and emails and knew that God was walking right next to me! In one email, there was a link to Nick Vujicic who is a motivational speaker born without arms or legs!!! That's right...I was humbled and so blessed to find this as one of my emails! The other message was a regular newsletter speaking about a young girl of 10 yrs who is an opera singer and recently hit the big time on television and YouTube. Many people are incredibly hostile about this little girl who only wants to bring joy to those who hear her sing. The newsletter explained how hard it is for people who have a higher vibration in the world...they are often attacked by those with a lower vibration because those with a lower vibration are physically uncomfortable around people who vibrate at a higher frequency. The deeper message was about following your passion even in times of great doubt and distress. WOW! Once again, God was walking right beside me even when I wanted to quit the path!

Please take a look at this young man...he will inspire you and help you continue your struggle towards healing on any level...Namaste my friends.

Nick Vujicic :: Attitude is Altitude :: No Arms, No Legs, No Worries

May You Be Blessed Movie - Virtual Therapy for the Soul

2010-08-10T22:56:00.002-07:00

Please take a few moments to watch this and let it connect with you.
May You Be Blessed Movie - Virtual Therapy for the Soul

Theta Binaural Beat Stress Relief - White Noise Meditation

2010-08-09T12:30:00.000-07:00

Diving into the Deep End of Faith

2010-07-29T12:16:00.000-07:00

In the last few months there has been a great deal of activity on an energy level. We are approaching a galactic alignment that only happens once in many thousands of years as well as experiencing a shift from the Age of Pisces into the Age of Aquarius. All of this has had an effect on humans, especially those of us who are extremely sensitive, intuitive and empathic. Woe to you if like me, you are all of these!

I have been struggling a great deal with my human ego side! Add to that a birthday this past week and I was almost completely undone by it all. My birthday was lovely although I had a bit of a meltdown when I received gifts of clothing which I had specifically told my family NOT to buy for me. Ever since the RSD and fibromyalgia, I have struggled with regulating my temperature and unfortunately, the struggle continues. I am unable to wear heavy materials or long sleeves unless they are cotton and somewhat loose; otherwise, I will get very warm and cannot cool off unless there is a walk in freezer nearby!

I felt that I had been exceptionally clear with my family about this, but apparently I was not heard. Needless to say, that has been the story my entire life so by the end of the weekend, stick a fork in me, I was done! I began to cry and let out years of anger at my family for all the perceived injustices done to and against me!

In addition to the birthday upset, I have tried for quite a while to include my family in my work.
Because they are not at all spiritual, they will not even attempt to understand what I do and they continue to hope and suggest that I will find a normal job! It has become so stressed that when we gather for family celebrations, no one will talk to me about anything because they are so fearful of opening up the can of worms called “Awaken to Spirit”.

My recent financial strain has also made life downright difficult. I have always had an unhealthy relationship to money. As a young person, I saved everything without know why I was saving it! I never understood that money must circulate to be useful or to even grow. My father was a child of the depression and as such, he learned that one must get a graduate degree or doctorate (He is an Oral Surgeon), work at a job for many years (even if you hate it) invest wisely and retire. Additionally, I always felt that we were controlled by money because my father wanted us to have everything that he never had as a child; unfortunately, my perspective was so different from his because I grew up in the 1970's!

After graduating from college and really not knowing who I was or what I was supposed to do, I ended up in a series of boring, go-nowhere jobs. I started my own business which was very successful but I did not understand anything about money at that time, so I became bored and ended up leaving that business for work in the film industry. Then I got sick and was unable to work for almost ten years. At the end of my illness I had lost everything. By the beginning of my forties, I had total poverty consciousness.

When I started working in healing and spirituality, I was convinced I had found my passion and because of this, I would not have any money problems from here on out! I did find my passion, but I was still operating from a place of fear and poverty consciousness when it came to money. I was forced to ask my father to loan me money and this did nothing to help our relationship. I understand completely why he would prefer that I work in a job with benefits and a retirement plan; however, I simply do not do well in that environment. The main point I am trying to make is this: by borrowing money from my father, I ended up taking on his belief system of fear and doubt. This was not intentional but I felt so guilty having to ask for money that I behaved as if I was less than. I did not want to behave as if I were prosperous because that would have been unfair to my father. But, that is exactly what I should have done! By acting as if I were less than and living in poverty consciousness, I kept attracting that same thing to me over and over again and that was more poverty and more less than belief.

As of Monday, I was in a very depressed place. Without understanding that my perspective was off and that my belief system was faulty, I began to blame my dad and my brother. I entertained the idea of severing my relationship with them in order to have the peace of mind and confidence to continue on with my own life and choices; however, doing this never felt right to me. I have always felt sad when hearing about families that do not speak or children that have no relationship to their parents. My mother passed away in 1991 of a sudden heart attack in her sleep and this was devastating to me. Because of this, I have tried even harder to have a bond with my dad and my brother; however, we are so different that this has not been easy.

I spoke with a close friend who wisely encouraged me to celebrate myself and slowly ween myself away from these negative influences. Unfortunately, I am an all or nothing kind of human when I am in my ego mindset, so I kept hearing that I needed to cut the cord and get away from these horrid folks!! Once I got quiet and sat in meditation and prayer, everything settled down. My chatter was able to go away and the hurt and anger I was rolling in also left!

Yesterday as I finished a third day of intense prayer and meditation, my epiphany came! I did not need to sever my relationship to either my father or my brother. What I needed to sever was the belief system I continued to carry around with me that was associated with my past. I was allowing myself to be hurt and upset by their lack of understanding because I was still believing the little girl part of me that said I AM NOT ENOUGH! I was not approaching the problem from a place of wholeness and divinity. I was trying to solve the problem from a very low frequency of human ego, pride and fear. As Einstein has so brilliantly said: A problem cannot be solved by the same vibrational frequency that created it – one must raise the frequency in order to find the solution and then apply it. (I am paraphrasing here)

I had placed all my eggs in the basket of needing approval from my father and brother thinking that if they did not support me emotionally and otherwise in my work, then that must mean something was wrong with me! I even went so far as to believe that their negativity was ruining my business! This was not conscious on my part. I was not walking around outwardly knowing that I was “less than”, but I was going through all the motions of life with this tiny, but powerful belief buried deep in my subconscious. This negative programming was affecting every aspect of my life.

Until I realized that I had placed more power in the approval of my family rather than giving ALL my power to faith and belief in God/Source/Creator, I was causing my own downfall. I was not terribly happy or content each day. My finances were a source of extreme stress. I was living in memories of the past when life was easier or I was projecting into the future waiting for a day when everything would be less of a struggle for me. I felt incredibly alone and isolated – often disappointed by others.

Now, all of this I knew was not my normal state of being. I have done enough work to know that something was off, but I was not sure what it was. I asked for guidance and clarity and boy did I get them! Once I saw that I was living in faith but only on the EDGE of it, I knew that it was time to dive into the deep end of faith and trust pool.

Years ago, I had a dream where I was riding a mule up the side of a steep, steep mountain that came to a plateau at the top. A group of us were on the experience and at the top of the mountain, we would leave our mule and walk to the edge of the mountain where we would jump off and make it safely to the bottom! When it was my turn, I found every excuse or reason NOT to go the edge and jump. Suddenly, in my dream there was a gift shop at the top where I could wander around and buy trinkets – which I did! In the entire dream, I was never able to take the leap of faith and jump. That dream has stayed with me all this time because I knew it was symbolic for me...I always knew that I would have to finally take that plunge and TRUST that I would be fine.

So today, I am diving into the middle of my faith and trusting solely in my oneness with God! I am leaving behind my past and ALL the beliefs that went with it. I feel as if my spiritual growth has taken a quantum leap in one day! I am living for today in the NOW of total freedom and love rather than recreating yesterday with past resentment or trying to predict tomorrow with fear of the future!

On a financial note, I have chosen to not go to my father for help when I need money. Instead, I am working on manifesting the money from Source/God/Creator because after all, God is the most qualified financial planner there is! This is a huge step for me as it regards faith. I did not realize that by taking the “safe” route and asking my father for help, I was literally saying to God “I don't trust you” and “I don't trust me”...In not trusting, I also was then opening myself up to negative energy and beliefs that were never my own.

By taking this leap of faith and releasing my need for approval and resources from my family, I have released all the resentment that I was storing within me. I am so grateful to my father for what he has done to help me and I am more grateful to him and my brother for what they have taught me. They agreed in spirit to often play the bad guys in my life out of their deep love for me so that I would learn some of my greatest lessons – what a sacrifice!

The following are two powerful lessons that I learned in the last few days:

Freedom is only attainable when living in the moment surrounded with and giving love.

No one has ever done anything to you...you have allowed it to be done to you and if it happened, you attracted it or needed it for soul growth. (I AM University)

My mantra for today and everyday from now on is: “Thy will, not mine be done. Thank you for the lesson.” (Paul Solomon)

Namaste!

PS..Let me explain what I believe an “epiphany” is. Put simply, they are moments when we look at something from an entirely new perspective and this gives us a true sense of understanding and freedom. So, in my case, although I have dealt with family issues and poverty consciousness for years, I was suddenly able to SEE both problems from an entirely new point of view! By doing this, I could also see the perfect solution....it's as if I simply moved out of my own shadow so I could see the panorama through sunlight more clearly! And what a view I finally had!!

AUM Meditation

2010-07-11T13:52:00.000-07:00

Some Thoughts on Healing & Living

2010-07-10T03:07:00.000-07:00

For some reason, I have been having a writers block! However, these are some thoughts and epiphanies that have come to me in the last week...I share them with you and hope they help you navigate a sometimes winding, twisting path in life.

FAITH

I have been reminded of probably my greatest challenge in life and that is to live in faith when everything in my being wants to take over and live in my intellect or react from my emotions!

So what is this thing we call faith? In the King James Version of the Bible, Hebrews 11:1 says this:
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

This is a tall order...believing that what we desire will happen even when we cannot see the proof of it coming to us. Most of us have trouble with this. We are far more comfortable being intellectual and educating ourselves on issues so that we can make sound decisions. Unfortunately, what I see in the world is that most of us continually feel we have made the wrong decisions in life and we are held hostage not only by these decisions, but by the consequences of them as well. All the education and knowledge in the world does not guarantee that our choices will turn out the way we expect them to or guarantee us that we have made the RIGHT decision.

I struggle constantly with this very issue. I say that because as much work as I have done on myself, there are still issues and patterns that arise which I need to uncover and discard. This is a process and one that has no graduation date! Probably my greatest test of faith has to do with keeping myself afloat financially while working with people who are themselves struggling emotionally, physically, spiritually and financially. This is not an easy economy in which to have a spiritual and healing practice; often times at the end of the month or a week before that, I am deciding if I should pay for gas or food.

Today I was in a place of fear about money and after a short burst of tears, I became still and quiet. I listened for guidance and answers - within moments they came! I heard the words “God is your business manager.” Now how in the world can I fail if the Creator of this remarkable Universe is in charge of making sure I can pay my rent, buy food and put gas in my car?

My experience with faith has been that the more I trust in my God, the more I find that I am ONE with this power. Just as is taught, the Kingdom of God is within me. When I place my trust and faith in this power and surrender all the results, not only is my fear stripped away, but I am given opportunities to experience my Oneness with God all the time. I can think of no better reward!

For me, faith means that I get out of my heads (thoughts) and out of my heart (emotions) so that I may reconnect to spirit; by so doing, I reconnect to that awesome energy and force that created this Universe. From this place, I get the big guns of information for download!

A TRUE HIGHER POWER

I ask almost everyone I work with if they believe in God, a Creator, a Source or a Higher Power. Inevitably, everyone says, “oh yes, I do.” But, when I ask them what that higher power is or looks like to them, they stare at me as if I have two heads!

It is not enough, especially when one is ill or in a challenging place, to have a vague notion of a higher power. After all, if you needed a doctor, you would see that image in your minds eye, then do your research and find a doctor. You would not just walk around looking for someone who kind of resembled a doctor, maybe or hopefully!! So, when you need a force that can help you really heal and not just treat your symptoms, why is it enough to just kind of, maybe, once in a while, think about God or this Power?

Take time to form a picture and a resume of what this power, force, energy or being is to you. This is YOUR higher power and he/she/it can be anything and anyone you choose it to be. Create a detailed picture in your mind. Form an intimate relationship with this amazing, infinite power because when you need a lot of help, this is the place you want to be.

I have said this before and I will keep saying it, my God is my best friend, my advisor, my counselor and my advocate (and now my business manager!). I talk with God all day long and ask for clarity, miracles and guidance. Not only do I talk and ask, but I KNOW without any doubt that all the answers are on a blackboard right in front of me and all I really am asking for is a new pair of glasses so that I can read everything more clearly. I work very hard at always going into my sidebars with God having trust! This is the power that created the Universe and keeps it going – how could I doubt that?

So...when you get really serious about deep healing on a physical, emotional and spiritual level, you must get to know the power and force that you believe created all of this awesome stuff! That way, when you go to this power, you know the outcome is going to be just as awesome and amazing!

P.S. The additional benefit to this is the following: when you have a higher power or God like this, you no longer need to rely solely on humans for help. I think we all know how hard it is when we are suffering and chronically ill or in pain for a long period of time. We don't want to be a burden and yet, we need to know that we are not alone. Having this relationship with God/Creator/Source will offer you a place of refuge and give those humans in your life a chance to step back once in a while and see that you are really and truly something beautiful and perfect to behold as you take your healing to a new level! And who knows? Maybe you will end up giving your human friends some pretty amazing counsel as well!

As you begin to form a relationship with your God or higher power, you will be amazed at all the opportunities you are given to surrender your will to this force. When you finally experience what it is like to live in this surrender and without fear, you will live a life you cannot dream of!

EGO (Edging God Out)

When working towards any kind of healing be it emotional, physical or spiritual, one must begin to identify how ego works in his/her life. When I speak of ego, I am not talking about the “I am just so great” idea of ego, but the part of a person that sees him or her as separate from others and from God, the part of the person that wants to remain in control all the time and never surrender the results to any unknown outcome. Ego is also the part of us that judges ourselves and others as well as the part that cannot forgive ourselves or others. Ego is also the part of us that lives in fear.

I have come to believe that I became sick with fibromyalgia, endometriosis and RSD all at the same time because I needed to wake up and answer God's call! Although I had spent most of my life knowing that God existed as an infinite, loving and powerful force, I did not trust that this God cared about me specifically. I had been in a great deal of fear for most of my life and as an intelligent woman, I learned that controlling everything was my only technique for combatting this fear. Unfortunately, this did not work well and caused me to become more fearful, more controlling and more judgemental.

When I was finally faced with losing the use of my legs altogether, I unplugged my ears, put my ego on hold and heard the still, small voice that had been calling me for years.

Since that day, my life has changed in ways I can hardly imagine. No, I am not wealthy beyond belief and I have not met the love of my life...but, I am healed inside and out and that is priceless. I learned to forgive myself and those around me for everything that I had seen as some slight against me.

Not only was I able to forgive, but I was able to see how I had taken every incident in my life and made it ONLY about me – even when it was clearly about someone or something totally unrelated to me! Releasing the need to always be center stage was such a relief! I had always admired those people who could go into a crowd of people and sit quietly and at ease amongst them because I was never able to do that – today I am free to just be still amidst the chaos and noise and it is wonderful!

Just as important, I am able to take every challenge that in the past might have unhinged me and see that it is a lesson to help me grow. When I approach difficulties in this way, they are no longer roadblocks but they become roadsigns directing me where I need to focus and change. As I rely on my Creator to help me, we both move towards another place of learning and healing...again, this is a process that I could not live without!

FORGIVENESS & JUDGEMENT

Ok..let's get this straight right now...forgiveness is NOT about condoning bad behavior! Most people that I work with cannot forgive someone because they feel that if they do then that will mean they accept what was done to them. That is not it at all. Forgiveness is about releasing the toxic energy that the incident created within you; after all, it is doubtful that the person who slighted you is carrying around hurt and resentment! So, you must learn to forgive, if nothing else than to allow your body the freedom from ever carrying any negative or dark energy within it again.

If you have a hard time with forgiveness, you must ask God/Source/Creator or your higher power to help you. Ask for guidance on this. Ask to have the negativity released from within you. Ask for a way to find forgiveness for someone. God knows what you need and will always provide when asked.

Today, I began to think about an exchange that happened on an online community forum. I was really put out by the negativity and judgement that was going back and forth until it hit me square in the chest: the experience or the reality is literally created by the observer. Therefore, no one but the observer will have that specific reality or experience; if that is the case, then I have no way of truly knowing what you are experiencing (seeing, hearing, feeling, tasting or smelling) because as you are the observer of YOUR reality, your experience by definition MUST BE completely different from mine!

This is just beautiful because it releases us from every having to engage in judgement. If we can never know what anyone else is actually experiencing, because it is unique only to them, then how in the world can we judge it? If we did have the guts to make a judgement, we would be doing so from a place of total ignorance!

The moment I really “got it” gave me immense freedom. I think most of us are judgemental even when we don't think we are being so. I know I am and often I catch myself about 10 or 15 minutes into it before I realize what I am doing...it usually goes like this: “So and so did this to me or said this to me and I just cannot understand why they said it. I mean if they know me at all, then they know that they should not have said or done that because it is incredibly hurtful. Why in the world are they not treating ME the way they would want to be treated?'

On and on it can go if I let my mind have free reign. But now, I know...they may have said or done something based on an experience or reality that I am unable to fully experience in the same way. For this, I cannot pass judgement.

Now here is where this gets really cool! If we eradicate judgement, then we begin to vibrate at a higher frequency that is more based in and aligned with love. As we do this and others also do this, then we are becoming more and more alike or in tune with each other; the byproduct of this is that our experiences will become more similar and we will become more as one or of like thought! (and being of like thought is what we have been wanting all along!)

SOME LAST THOUGHTS

This is a tough world to navigate when one is healthy. It is even harder when one is sensitive, empathic and vulnerable. Add to that a chronic illness or pain and it is nearly impossible. Everything we go through in this life is teaching us something. Usually we are learning how to love ourselves and others without ego, expectation or judgement.

I often find that people either really love me or they really hate me – there is no in between. When I come across those who hate me, they often go out of their way to be cruel and hurtful; I never understsood this and recently ask God if I was being punished for something. What I heard astounded me! A voice that was so clear said the following: “Little One, this is not punishment for you. This is your opportunity to show those who need it most how to live a life centered in God and Christ Consciousness. You have many opportunities to show others how to live in love and in light. This is your blessing, Little One.”

A few days after that happened, I read a timely piece on why there are people in our life who cause us pain. I am pasting it here for you as it says perfectly what I want to share!

The Awakening: Vicky Anderson

"At this level, all thought waves that are not wanted are not merely pushed away, but rather, our mind is transformed and our perspectives are shifted. This is one of the biggest shifts people will experience during humanity's current evolution. We must come to understand that the events that cause our emotional issues are deliberately orchestrated by our Spirit. This is done as part of the Divine plan, both for our own growth and for the growth of humanity.

Many of our thoughts are not from our own mind. So the people who cause your unwanted emotional issues are not really responsible for their actions at all. It is their compassionate Spirit who, from the soul level, agrees for them to play the 'bad guys' in each of the karmic dramas in your life. And your Spirit also agrees for you to play the 'bad guy' from time to time, so they too can grow emotionally and spiritually. Both of these Spirits, yours and theirs, love you more than you can know.

The minute we release the grudges we hold toward these people for playing their part in our dramas, our sub-conscious mind can inform our Spirit that these grudges no longer have a hold on us. That’s when our Spirit opens for us a direct line of communication with God."

This is such an important place for us to be able to get to...a direct line of communication with God/Creator/Source or Higher Power.

Your God wants this for all of us. Get to know your God or higher power and find out what special blessings you are being given. As you do, you will heal because you will release those things which is of human creation that keeps us separated from our Oneness with our God.

And Finally...BAD THINGS IN GOD'S WORLD

People will often use the argument that there is no God because there is so much negativity, illness and horror in this world. I have learned that everything which is negative in this world is man-made, not God made! God wants us to be abundant, prosperous and healthy. Only man can create limits, poverty and disease. If we are aligned with and remember our Oneness with Source, then we do not have to experience the darkness of humanity. We can be free, healthy and at peace to live always in the Light. Namaste.

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The Importance of True Healing

2010-05-21T17:57:00.000-07:00

I was reminded today of why it is so important to do true healing at some point in ones life. Many people believe that therapy and coming to terms with some issue in their lives is enough. I do not.

I believe that therapy can help us identify problems and issues. In other words this process may uncover and discover problems within; however, I am not convinced that therapy helps us rid (discard) ourselves of the negative energy those issues carry with them. If we do not release this energy, it continues to bombard our bodies with negative destruction over and over again, eventually causing the body to enter a state of “dis-ease”.

I have spoken with and worked with so many people who have had years of therapy and while many of them are able to freely express themselves and the problems they have identified and worked on, they continue to hold the dark energy of those problems within their spirits and bodies. Ultimately, they have not healed the issue; rather, they have only found a place for it that is emotionally manageable. When a mind, body and spirit (as one) have not fully healed something, it can continue to fester and attract more negativity to itself, eventually causing illness. This is clearly something that must be avoided.

Energy work and spiritual healing, when done correctly, guides a person towards completely uncovering, discovering and discarding those problems, beliefs and issues that have found their way into our subconscious and conscious minds over time. The person can be walked through a process of releasing not only the problem but the power or energy that problem holds within the person's body, mind and spirit.

Additionally, by seeing all problems or issues as spiritual lessons or teachings, the person is often able to turn somethng that has been a lifelong negative into a true positive, learning so much from the experience that they never again need face that same issue again! This is true enlightenment and a skill that once learned can be used effectively towards healing future problems. I cannot think of anything more empowering that being able to take something that has the potential to destroy, remove its power and turn it on its head so that it becomes a gift of growth and perhaps inspiration!

I was having a discussion (unfortunately only by email) with someone I do not know who was very angry with me. I had attempted to explain my history and background in an effort to illustrate why I approached a certain social problem from a unique perspective. My perspective seemed to cause her great distress! When I mentioned that I had healed myself of three different diseases and that this journey created this new perspective, she shot back that she “knew all about self-healing” as her husband had done specific back exercises with great success. While I understood her point, I could only note the deep anger that was being held within this woman who may know all there is to know about self-healing from her husband's perspective, but has no idea about releasing that energy from her own body, mind and spirit..

I was profoundly sad for her because I knew that had she spent any time at all on her own spiritual healing, she would have released the anger she carried within herself and used toward others when it was unecessary to do so. When we target others with our own anger, we usually end up causing ourselves far more distress than we cause the other person. The negativity of this anger leaves us momentarily thereby giving us a false sense of release and then returns to us exponentially larger as it now carries with it the negativity from the person it was directed towards as well as any stray dark energy it gathered from the collective unconscious while on its journey.

Releasing toxic energy from our bodies is the only way to be sure that we no longer will suffer the ill effects of its toxicity. This is what true healing is all about. Releasing this negative energy and allowing the body to come back to balance and restore itself from “dis-ease” to ease and wholeness.

Lastly, I want to address the many requests I receive from individuals who would like me to solve a painful problem in one email. While true healing and profound enlightenment can and often does happen in an instant, the process leading up to that instant involves time. We live in a world that provides us instant access to almost everything and unfortunately, this has led us to believe that anything that takes time is boring, unworthy or outdated. Spiritual growth and healing of the body, mind and spirit is not a destination but an exciting lifelong journey that should be treated with great reverence, not as a download or update of software. If you find someone who is willing to give you instant advice without taking into account how you arrived at the problem you are now facing, you have cheated yourself of some important learning; this is invaluable information which might possibly prevent you from more searing pain in the future. Anytime we do not learn our lessons from one experience, we become destined to repeat the lesson with higher stakes in the future!

There is a process to doing this and all of us who work with clients probably approach the journey in very different ways. The main concern is that you are on your own journey towards healing and wholeness and not walking the path of your healer; he or she has done his/her own journey and should not need you to validate it. Be prepared that deep healing is not always comfortable, easy or quick. It is not about you receiving only nurturing; is is only about you becoming whole again. Growth is often painful but oh, so worth it!!! As my wonderful and enlightened friend would say, “Happy Healing!”

Are You Overly Sensitive?

2010-05-04T18:21:00.000-07:00

Over these last few posts, I have mentioned that I am someone who is very sensitive. A lot of you seemed to identify with being sensitive as well. I have found in my work that many people who are dealing with chronic pain issues or autoimmune disease are also incredibly sensitive and empathic (they feel other peoples feelings without having been told what the person is experiencing).

Because of this, I want to take a minute to explain a little more about what we as sensitives deal with on a daily basis. Those of us who are sensitive often do not realize that we feel and take on OTHER people's feelings, fears, physical illnesses, etc. without knowing that we have done this. On top of that, if we are empathic and intuitive, we can be bombarded by the fears, anxieties and depression of the collective unconscious; often times, we will end up in bed not understanding why we are so unhappy when nothing specific has happened to us. We do not see that we have internalized a wave or field of emotion and energy that we did not produce. Consequently, it is imperative that we find a way to distinguish between what is ours and what is theirs.

I was having a particularly emotional afternoon the other day for no particular reason. All of a sudden, I realized that I was experiencing a mood that was from others and most likely from their subconscious. For whatever reason, people in general were down that day or just a bit filled with anxiety and I was picking up on it. When I was clear that I was not really upset about any one thing in particular, I was able to allow the mish mash of feelings to just wash over me and then go – I recognized it and then allowed it to leave me. It was not mine to begin with, so I had no reason to hang on to it.

When I was younger, I did not understand this, nor did my family. I was so adept at feeling what others were feeling, that I could shift gears in a moment. This was very frightening for me and I am sure it caused my parents a great deal of concern since I was unable to articulate what was really going on. It has only been in the last ten years or so that I now know why this was happening to me and how to control it in a way that does not completely unhinge my life.

If you are a sensitive person, give yourself a break. Realize that you are very, very blessed even if you do not know that you just yet. When you feel something so intensely, ask yourself if this might be a feeling that others are sending out and not your own. If so, simply relax and acknowledge your ability to sense this; let the feeling simply be and then allow it to go away. It was never yours to begin with and now that you know this, you can just allow it to move on somewhere else.

Before you leave the house and you know you are going out somewhere with a lot of people around such as a mall, movie or concert, be sure to center yourself. Feel your feet on the floor (no rubber soles, please as that grounds your energy!) connect your feet down into the energy of the earth. Feel gratitude for Mother Earth or Gaia and your connection to her. Then visualize a beautiful white, silver or gold light coming up from your feet, through your body and out of your head into the heavens.

From here you are now connected to your Higher Power, whatever that is to you. Keep this connection and feel the amazing love and power that you are now plugged into. Once you feel this, allow that beautiful white, silver or gold light to surround you as well. See it keeping your protected and safe – you can always adjust it if you feel you cannot allow enough in. When you feel you are perfectly shielded, then you can go out and enjoy yourself without being overstimulated by others energy or emotions.

If for some reason you come home feeling overwhelmed despite your best efforts, then you can do two very easy and helpful things. One, light a candle and ask your Higher Power and your Spirit Guides to clear you of all outside negative or powerful energy and emotion that is not your own. See yourself clear and cleansed. Additionally, take a relaxing shower or bath and rinse away this extra energy or emotion! This will really help you...if you are somewhere where you cannot shower or bath, just splash water on your face and arms as a substitute! Always, always drink plenty of water to rinse out toxins that have found their way inside (it's also really good for your skin!)

There are also crystals which you can carry with you or wear that will assist with all of this; however, I am a strong believer that you must learn how to control and deal with this on your own first. By doing so, you may just find out some really neat things about yourself and your abilities as a sensitive! I did and am incredibly grateful for these gifts today.

Any questions my fellow sensitives and empaths? Just ask!

What You Think of Me is None of My Business and Why That is True!

2010-05-03T11:22:00.000-07:00

I want to explain a little bit more about my “what you think of me is none of my business”philosophy. I call this my living free code, because when I live in this way, I am no longer bound by trying to get someone to like me or to agree with me.

Unfortunately for those of us who have had any therapy or read a self-help book in the last ten years, we have been told the exact opposite of this. Instead we have been trained to “find our voice” and “set appropriate boundaries” so that no one will have a chance to abuse us. We have had enough abuse in our lives, so will we not allow anyone to wipe their feet on us again! This is our new battle cry.

Now here comes someone like me telling you to take responsibility only for yourself and to stay out of other people's paths. Is she crazy? This flies in the face of all that we have learned and gained over the last few years!

I assure you, I am not crazy. I am completely sane and able to live a life that I once thought was only reserved for the happy few and that was clearly not me! I was at the mercy of what life gave me and each day I was barely existing.

Today however, I realize that life is never just dealt to us. Instead, we are co-creators and co-artists in painting or sculpting whatever masterpiece we choose! We can choose to paint by numbers or we can create our own Picasso, Rodin or Michelangelo! There is no limit to what we are able to experience!

This is how it works:

Each of us is born perfect and with a perfect, divine blueprint within. Unfortunately over time, we receive bits and pieces of information and plug into collective memories that are not perfect! Our hardware is perfect, but the software we acquire is not – it is full of viruses! Yet over the years, we begin to believe that the software is right and we or the hardware is flawed! More and more we begin to see what is not perfect about us and in doing so, we reject ourselves. As we further devalue ourselves, we become attracted to others much like us – flawed, hurt and angry people.

The only way out of this for good is to do a thorough cleaning of the hardware and software – we need to debug everything! We have to get rid of all the errors and collective harmful memories in order to reset ourselves to that perfect divine blueprint. Much of this can be accomplished with an inventory of ourselves and by examining the limiting beliefs we continue to use. (There are lots of techniques for doing this and I can write about those later.)

Once we do our cleaning and clearing, we are ready to go back to the beginning and discover who we really are. I have always believed that God does not make mistakes, so there is a good bet that God did not make any mistakes in creating me! I started by looking at those labels that I had been given early on in life. These labels usually spoke to something that was innate within me.

For example, I was very, very sensitive to everything and my family considered this a weakness. They believed that I needed thicker skin to navigate this world. I have said before that because of their interpretation of my sensitivity, I began to believe that something was wrong with me.

In order to find the truth about this, I decided to ask myself the following questions: “Why would God create me as such a sensitive being? Why does this world need sensitive people? How is sensitivity a positive and not a negative?” In trying to answer these questions, I discovered my intuitive, psychic and empathic gifts! These were traits or abilities that I had always had, but I had never embraced them as such due to my old beliefs.

I am also someone who has always loved people way past their “expired by” date! I am able to care for someone no matter what, even if I am being hurt! There was a book out many years ago titled “Women Who Love Too Much” and it portrayed women like me as weak! Once again, I asked myself why God created me with this quality. In answering this, I found that I am a natural born healer!

As I “re-raised” myself with compassion and understanding, I began to realize just how special I am and how much I value and like myself. I no longer see myself as wasted potential! Instead, I know myself to be a loving, kind and powerful spiritual being. I am not a mistake!

By doing this work, I began to love myself deeply. This love is so powerful a force that it completely shifted my energy and spiritual make-up, activating a magnet within me. This is a magnet which attracts only people and experiences into my life that are meant to further me as a loving spiritual being. The people I now meet are sensitive, loving, healing and kind! Before this when I did not like myself, I was a “creep magnet”! I could always attract those people who would prey on my deepest insecurities (hence why I needed boundaries and a voice!).

Today I no longer need to worry about attracting the wrong kinds of people or experiences into my life. That just does not happen unless there is some reason I need to do this. When this happens, it is because I have a new lesson to learn or there is another old belief still hiding!

If I find that I have attracted someone or something into my life that is reminiscent of my old belief system, I stop and look at what is going on. I do not get angry with myself or at the other person. Instead, I ask why I might have needed to bring this kind of person or experience into my life today. The answer will always come to me within a day or two! Usually it is in the form of an “Ah-ha” moment which allows me to release the person or experience instantaneously. Some call this process Uncover, Discover and Discard!

Today I live in total freedom. I take full responsibility for everything I think, I feel, I say and I do. If any one of those is off, it is my duty to set it right by doing the work; however, because I love who I am today, I am inspired to do the work and to make any changes necessary that will promote my spiritual growth. I have purpose in life and am passionate about who I am and what I do.

Years ago, some people who were trying to help me told me never to quit before the miracle! Today, I know what they meant by this and I am so glad that I took their advice! Please don't quit before your miracle.

You Are Perfect

2010-04-30T15:43:00.000-07:00

I have been working with some people who have deeply impressed me with their committment to healing and change! They are amazing, powerful, kind, loving, and courageous just to name a few attributes! I have been overjoyed with how quickly they have embraced this work and made such huge strides in healing so that their lives will forever be those of guidance, growth and wellness. They will never again face difficulties as if they are being punished! Anything that comes their way will be something they can navigate and they will know that it is there to teach them new lessons. (The good news is that you can learn how to do all of this as well...it is not a secret!) What a blessing!

So, this being said and if I could waive a magic wand, what would I want for all of you right now in this moment?

I would want you to all know that you are PERFECT BEINGS! You are perfect spiritual beings having a beautiful human experience and even if your body is not perfect right now, it can be. Within you resides a perfect divine blueprint and it contains everything that you need in life. The lesson is to learn how to access these drawings and call them back into existence.

When you were born, you were (and still are) perfect. Unfortunately though, in today's world, we spend years being told that we don't know enough, we are not old enough, we must learn more, etc. At the same time, we are bombarded with media images of what is perfection - even if it means painful plastic surgery OR time spent with an airbrush and photoshop! Is it any wonder that most of us could not look ourselves in the mirror with love and acceptance? Rather, we would scrutinize every little bump or blight and wonder how we could get rid of what we don't like!

I spent the majority of my life performing for everyone as a daughter, student, friend, lover...whatever. I was a quick study and learned how to please people and that became my addiction. I was never comfortable with myself unless I was receiving positive feedback from others. I later learned that "people pleasing" is really manipulation as it does not allow the other person to react freely and openly to me.

Today, I have become quite comfortable knowing that what you think of me is none of my business! Now that does not mean that I am allowed to be unkind or abusive. It means that I will always behave and speak with the kindness and love I would want directed towards me, but I will allow you to react or perceive me in any way that you choose. If you don't like me, I will not take it personally ...that is your right and your choice. As long as I like myself and value the spiritual being within, I am fine.

Most importantly, I know I am a perfect spiritual being who will more than likely fall into human weakness in this body and experience that I am having; however, that does not make me any less perfect - it just makes me human as well! Whenever I am faced with something that is a problem, I remember that I am here to learn and to grow spiritually, so whatever I face is just making me do that very thing.

As a perfect being, I am also connected as one with God or Source. If there is a problem that overwhelms the human Lynn, I always trust that spiritual Lynn and her Source connection can find the answer. I relax, ask for help and then get out of the way. Because I trust that the answer is on its way to me as I am asking for it, I have never been disappointed by not receiving the answer or receiving the wrong one! This has been a miracle formula for me and one that I wish I had learned a long time ago!

So, to keep this short...please, please tonight as you put your head down on your pillow, see yourself as the beautiful, spiritual being of light and love that you are! Give yourself a few minutes to really feel this deep down. Feel gratitude for the wonderful traits that you have and may not celebrate enough! Treat yourself as your very best friend before you doze off....You are perfect in every way even if you don't know it just yet...you will.

Namaste.

Intuitive Parenting

2010-03-15T14:01:00.001-07:00

What is intuitive parenting? It is simply a process by which you allow that still, small voice to come through and speak to you about your child. It is not hearing from a place of emotion or a place of intellect; instead it is hearing from a connection to something bigger – call it spirit, God, Source or whatever works for you. When you are connected to this larger web and you are tuned into the frequency of your child, you have access to information that is precise and timely for that child at that moment. All of you as parents have experienced times with your children when you just knew something and no one could tell you differently. That is intuitive parenting and in this day and age, it is vital that you expand your skill level.

Children are incredible communicators despite the fact that they may not posses the verbal skills with which to articulate their thoughts. Additionally, children are incredibly sensitive and empathic in ways that most adults have lost. In general, children have abilities that we adults have outgrown as we have learned to operate in a world based in fear and ego.

Science and quantum physics has determined that all humans are basically energy. Although we are chemical and biological, we are primarily energy that is vibrating at certain frequencies throughout the day. We have found that in addition to our physical body, we also possess an emotional body, a mental body and a spiritual body which surround the physical body; because these additional bodies vibrate at such a high frequency, they are not as dense as the physical body and to many people they appear to be invisible.

As an intuitive and an energy worker, I am able to see and read all these different bodies. Much like tuning into a radio station, I am able to tune into the frequency of these different bodies and receive information. Consequently, I can access information that your child is communicating on a non-verbal level. In some cases, a child's emotional, mental and/or spiritual body will show areas that are in distress before the physical body has manifested this distress as an illness. In other cases, a child may already have an illness or diagnosis, but by working with their energy many of their symptoms can be addressed and minimized because the body as a whole is being fully supported.

My long term goal is to teach parents how to do this yourself so that you are always able to fully “dialogue” with your child. You already have the basic skill set; however, you need some guidance in how to get out of your head and emotions so that the true information can come through in a clear and precise manner. When I work with children, I always involve the family so that everyone can begin communicating in a new, fun way that allows all the pieces of the puzzle to be seen.

The Power of Giving

2010-03-14T20:45:00.000-07:00

I am so thrilled as I write this because through helping someone else to heal, I have grown spiritually by leaps and bounds - all in about ONE week! Through spiritual serendipty, I came across a blog about someone who is struggling with a chronic pain disease that I myself battled for years. At the time, I was told in no uncertain terms that I was meant to reach out to this remarkable woman and help her on her spiritual journey of healing. I didn't know why I was told to do this, but I have done this long enough, that I no longer question why anymore - I follow orders and just do what I am told!

So I did and I quickly found myself helping someone who is truly amazing, deeply strong and so filled with intuitive light that she shines on me and all those around her!

What I find incredible is that almost immediately after making this connection, I began to feel a bit strange. I felt very tired, but at the same time, I was edgy and awake. Again, I have been on this journey long enough, that I knew something or some shift was coming and it was coming in a BIG way! Unfortunately, I am still somewhat impatient and as soons as I realized I was in for a growth spurt, I became very excited and could not wait to find out what it would be. Sad to say, I had to wait a bit longer and become more tired and wiped out...

Today, a new truth was revealed! As soon as my epiphany hit, I was able to jump forward spiritually, emotionally and mentally. More importantly, I was also able to release years of emotional pain that I did not realize I was still carrying! As I released this pain, I was instantly forgiving all the people who played a role in how this pain was created within my life. AMAZING! In one moment, I was enlightened and lightened of my burden! (I will share the details of the epiphany later on as it is so fresh that I wish to honor it by just allowing it to merge within me.)\\

The point that cannot be lost here is that through my work with another human being and in helping HER to heal, I also was healed! I have always believed that what I was so freely given (my own healing from chronic pain as well as a spiritual awakening) must be shared with others so that I may keep my gifts.

I hear from people all over the world who are in a tremendous amount of physical, mental, emotional and spiritual pain. The main theme that plays out over and over again for these people is how small their world becomes. They are unable to focus on anything or anyone but the pain and how unfair it is. Unfortunately, this kind of thinking is only going to attract more pain and more injustice since we do become what we think about.

My pearl of wisdom for today is this - If you are experiencing a dark night of the soul, I urge you to step outside of yourself for just a moment and offer your heart and spirit to someone who is also suffering. Give of yourself without any expectation of receiving anything in return...I guarantee you that you will not be the same person once you have done this. Either you will experience something that you never imagined could happen to or for you, or your perspective will have shifted so dramatically that your dark night will no longer seem so dark or so long.

Blessings my friends and welcome to the journey.

Going Down Swinging: A RSD Blog: Adrenal Fatigue

2010-02-27T12:10:00.000-08:00

Going Down Swinging: A RSD Blog: Adrenal Fatigue

The True Meaning of The Snake in The Garden

2010-02-16T12:45:00.000-08:00

Over the last ten years, I have been on a spiritual quest during which I have asked questions and have been rewarded with the most amazing answers. One of my most passionate quests has been to understand the teachings of the Bible. While most people readily accept it as “the word of God”, I realize that it has been translated many times and into many languages, edited as well and most importantly was put together by a group of men called the Nicean Council. There is clear proof that many teachings were deleted because they would not have fit with what these men sought to accomplish. Add to that the fact that for years the only people able to even read the Bible were the clergy, well...you see my point.

In my searching, I am often intuitively “hit” with knowledge. Sometimes I will get some information and it just rings true to me; the following is one of these bits of truth. If you don't agree with it, fine. If you do, fine. The point is for all of us to find what we need to find as it relates to our relationship with God. I share this with you to provoke thought and discussion within your family and group.

For most of us growing up, we were told that the serpent represented our fall from grace into sin as man was given and chose free will; however, for me that never rang true. I puzzled over why God would create man/woman in his own image (which is perfection) but then create a serpent to more or less set him/her up to fail? This just never made sense to me.

After doing some meditation and reading, I had my answer! The snake and the decision to eat the fruit actually represents man/woman's separation from God; at that moment, man/woman began to look outside of himself/herself for answers (or for God). The kingdom in that moment, became something to seek outside of man/woman. Free will was not created in this moment but separation from God was.

The serpent says, “if ye shall eat of this tree (the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil) your eyes shall be surely opened and ye will be like God.” It is clear that as man/woman's eyes open, they begin to look outside themselves for answers and truth. From this point on, is man/woman is no longer one with God. (When man/woman were one with God, free will was a lot less dangerous.)

Jesus then came to teach us or to help us remember that “the kingdom of Heaven is within”. Jesus had, through the practice of his meditations and fasting, become one with God or Christ-consciousness. That was the crux of his teaching. We as humans could become Christ-consciousness if we allowed ourselves to remember that “the father is within me and of myself, I can do nothing.” Once we stop looking outside of ourselves for The Kingdom, we find God within and can attain more than what Christ attained: “Verily, verily I say unto you. He that believeth in me, the works that I shall do, he shall do also; and greater than these shall he do...”

We are also assured by Jesus of this: “To him that overcometh, will I give to eat of the tree of life, which is in the midst of the paradise of God.” In this sense, overcometh means that we find God again within ourselves and stop looking outside for any answers. At that moment, when we become one with God again, we are allowed back into the Garden and may eat of the Tree of Life. What a wonderful blessing and something to which we may all aspire.

Why? What is life about?

2010-01-09T16:08:00.000-08:00

Recently, I received news that someone I know who is homeless by choice had attempted suicide. He once told me that he had been clean and sober for almost 8 years and during that time, he held a job in a recovery house; unfortunately, all along he was not any happier as a sober, functioning human being than he had been as a homeless non-participating member of every day life.

Today I found out that another person that I know but have not seen in quite a while died. She was young and had young children. Apparently, she was very ill but refused to go to the hospital or call a doctor. When paramedics arrived, they were shocked that her family and friends had not insisted that she seek medical attention prior to that day. And now she was gone and her kids were without a mother at very young ages.

On the heels of all this news, the Holidays just having passed and a move that nearly killed me, I started thinking about a bigger picture. What is it that we are doing here in this game called life?  Why are we here?
Is life just about getting a job, paying bills and maybe being able to afford a house or raise children? If we are lucky enough to find our passion and give back to the world, does this make life meaningful enough?

And what about the people out there who just cannot navigate this world as it is? How do we treat the ones who prefer to be homeless and not part of the mainstream? And what about a young woman who is a mother who chooses not to seek medical attention and dies because of this decision?
What is more disturbing to me is that these are not unfamiliar scenarios in today's world. Why is this? What has happened that these situations exist at all in a world with so many resources?

The other day I was struggling with my family, my life, my work and so much more that I had been in a great deal of fear...even bordering on panic attacks.  I needed to know what was going on - what was I doing here? So I went into a really calm, meditative state and suddenly, I heard a voice that was so clear telling me that my life is about love. I am here to learn how to love and to teach others how to love without ego, expectation or judgement. Every heartache, every trial and tribulation is about learning to love the pure way -the way we are loved by whatever Creator we believe breathed life into this beautiful Universe.

And that was it...I knew every answer to every question I have every had.  It is that simple and yet, that hard...loving EVERYONE without making judgments or assessments - just loving them because they are part of this big world we call Earth or Gaia!    That is why we are here! That is what it is all about. The key is love.

Morphed...Why I Do What I Do

2009-12-02T15:52:00.000-08:00

I started this post about my move and then it morphed inside me into a new topic..."Why I do What I do".

As the holidays are now upon us and I realized that I will be exposed to people who have no idea who I am or what I am about, I began to think about my work and why I am so passionate about it.

I think it boils down to fear. I was raised in fear and still fight a long struggle with that and control. I think many of us do because we have been told over and over again that we must control our circumstances by having a good job, saving money, preparing for retirement, buying a house and building equity, having health insurance...etc.

And yet, let's look at society today. We have more addiction to drugs, alcohol and food than ever before. We are treating young people for obesity and diabetes for crying out loud. We are scratching our heads at why there has been a Columbine or a 9-11 or any other terrible tragedy. We are picking up the pieces from an economy built on a stack of cards and greed. So much for controlling our circumstances!

...there has to be more. And, guess what? There is! There is so much more and so much more happiness, peace, health and joy to be had...but all of this will not be had by fighting for control or running from fear.

This transformation will come about when we stand still and recognize that there is a force, an intelligence around us and within us that is centered in oneness, love and spirit. It is that still, small voice within you that tells you of a truth that is so ancient you should not have any knowledge of it but yet, you do...

There will be a time when understanding that "the kingdom of God is within you" means that all of us can be loving, kind people as a collective...free of ego, expectation and judgement on a daily basis rather than showing up to a ritual once a week or a few times a year and then forgetting how to love one another once we exit the pew. We can nod our heads in acknowledgement when we hear that God doesn't care about what is the right religion.   And we will nod our heads because we KNOW that we do not need a religion or a church if we are truly LIVING the life that is intended for us.

We won't be afraid to say the word "God" because for once, it will represent only what it should...pure and total love of all in perfect creation.

We will heal ourselves and heal this planet because there will no longer be hierarchy ...all will be equal because of the knowledge that everything in existence was created by something so spectacular that it could never be a mistake or taken for granted.

Can this really happen? Yes...it can and it can start within each one of us if we are willing to allow our ego to be removed and replaced by a knowledge that we are all one, connected by something precious, powerful living and loving. That to harm another person or thing means that we harm ourselves and that would be crazy...unthinkable.

So with this vision, I keep doing what I do...helping people to find their way out of pain, dis-ease and fear. When I see someone make that connection to a new reality - a reality that is promising, hopeful and near then I have accomplished something! When I see someone who is now free from pain help another person find relief from their own nightmare, that is meaningful. When I see someone connect to whatever they believe God to be and begin to live in freedom, then I can sleep soundly at night - because I know we are one step closer to a world of love and oneness.   Amen and sweet dreams.

Blocked on Facebook!

2009-10-03T10:25:00.000-07:00

Recently, I discovered that I had been “blocked” by someone on Facebook…not because I had done something inappropriate, but because I was being punished for something that I must have done and did not know about! That experience, coupled with the people I know who are having romantic relationships through text messaging, has compelled me to write this.

Have we really become so unable to communicate with people one on one that we have resorted to the counterfeit intimacy of texting and social networking sites? Is there any hope for a world without conflict when we are unable to put forth an effort to tell someone in person that we have been hurt by something they said or did? Are we now a world where we rely on “settings” to communicate for us? If we “block” someone, are we hoping that they will realize they have done something hurtful and then we won’t have to tell them?

I don’t like confrontation anymore than the next person. For years I tried to avoid having to speak up because I had spent years of my life not being heard; however, I had a huge epiphany one day as I stomped my feet over a co-worker’s bad behavior. I was so angry that she failed to do the right thing without being told! Then I started to wonder, why was I so upset by this? What she had done was irritating, but not horrible.

Boom… it hit me! I expected her to act appropriately because otherwise, I might just have to be uncomfortable and speak up! I hated confrontation so much that I just wanted everyone around me to behave so that I would be ok. The problem was not her behavior, it was my inability to speak to her without thinking it was a confrontation!

I needed to find a voice that was free of ego, expectation and judgment. I needed to find a way to speak truth with love, rather than be confrontational. The Universe was teaching me to find a respectful way of behaving and communicating with people.

I suspect that many of us have this same problem…unfortunately, the solution will not be found in retreating and hiding behind internet sites and their settings. All of us need to grow spiritually and emotionally within so that we can face our own fears and learn to speak up with kindness and love.

And finally, we must also realize that not being heard is really someone else’s problem …and that is something we cannot fix!

Getting Out of A Learned Rut

2009-09-26T16:02:00.000-07:00

I have an idea...I want to work at different minimum wage jobs and take my spiritual and life coaching work to the jobsite! I want to see if I can help those people who work in these kinds of jobs find a way out.

(It was brought to my attention that there is a book out there called Nickel and Dimed that discusses this issue from a sociological perspective.)

My hope is to offer people in these types of jobs a new belief system: If you change HOW and WHAT you think, you can eventually change your life entirely.

We have taught people in this country through years of repetition that there is simply not enought to go around and that some get most and most get only some. In reality, there is plenty out there to go around and it is only our wrong thinking that keeps us in this rut. Once someone decides that he/she can achieve abundance, that person will achieve it through right thinking and action.

So I am putting it to you...what do you think will be the response? Do you think most people will jump at this opportunity? or do you believe I have my work cut out for me? Have we convinced a class of people in this country that they are stuck forever in a place that will never let them leave? Or will the fear of change overshadow the potential long-term benefits?

My hope is that everyone who has the opportunity to grow and change will take it, but I could be wrong.

The Laws of the Universe & Subsidies

2009-08-08T17:08:00.000-07:00

I was thinking about welfare, work comp and all the people I happen to know who find ways to live on subsidies from the government. While all of us can enter an unending debate about this process and why it is right or wrong, I want to offer a little discussed and different perspective on this.

When one takes advantage of a financial program that guarantees a meager monthly stipend without any work being exchanged, that person, perhaps unknowingly, is required to adhere to that program's value of money.

Let me explain.

We all have a relationship to and with money, i.e. what we think about money and how easily or difficult it comes to us. Usually, we learn this from our parents and friends as we grow up. Most often, we don't end up with a very healthy concept of what money is, represents or how to earn and keep it. For example, some of us were taught that "money doesn't grow on trees" or we have to work at a miserable job all our lives just to make a living.

As we get older and more independent, most of us are forced to come to terms with our old ideas about money and evaluate how well these ideas work for us. This exercise can often free us from keeping worn out concepts that would have kept us stuck in a poverty mentality.

However, when we rely on a government agency or institution to give us something on a monthly basis that barely covers rent, food and other expenses, we are forced to adopt THAT agency's concepts about money! Because these programs were created to only replace wages on a short-term basis, the concept associated with such programs is usually ill defined. On a short-term basis, an ill defined concept of money or even a "poverty mentality" may be fairly harmless.

On a long term basis, poverty mentality is destructive. Unemployment, disability and welfare were never constructed to replace long term working wages; as such, the agencies that distribute them do not have a concept of money that correlates with abundance and prosperity!

When you enlist in these programs, you are agreeing to a mentality of LACK. You are acknowledging that for this moment, you are in a state of lack and require assistance. That is precisely WHY these programs are meant to remain short-term. Otherwise, you can spend your entire life in a state of LACK or poverty mentality.

Unfortunately today, more and more people are relying on these programs to provide them a long term solution to cash flow without exchanging any energy in return. Consequently, more and more people are accepting this poverty mentality and agreeing to live in LACK for many months or years. Since we know that "like attracts like", it is virtually impossible to be associated with these programs and work your way out of this destructive mentality.

If used correctly, these programs provide exactly what they are meant to: a life boat that gets us to shore. When used improperly, these programs create a group of people who become trapped in a mentality of lack and ultimately look to an outside agency for the solution to poverty. This is never where the solution will be found.

Divine Creator & Divine Us

2009-07-05T14:51:00.001-07:00

I just read something that hit me in my third eye! It was part of a newsletter by Adrian Cooper of "Our Ultimate Reality" and here it is:

"This brings us to the most important truth of all, a truth which has
been taught by all civilizations throughout the ages - that every
single person, without exception, is an immortal Spiritual being,
a true son or daughter of God.

We have absolutely all the creative power of God, but only to the
extent that we can realise God within. The more we can realise
God within, the more powerful creators we are plain and simple.

So we have to start from the position that we are children of God,
encourage people to assimilate that great truth, and then to
understand the implications - specifically that we are all channels
of expression and experience of God, with the freewill to learn by
experience."

What hit me is highlighted in BOLD...I work with clients all the time who have no real idea of what or who God is in their lives. They believe in God, they feel they have a connection with God, but that is as far as it goes. When I ask specifics, they cannot answer me because they have never really defined what God is to them.

And this is where it gets interesting...if we are OF God, ("made in his image") but we don't have a clear idea of what God is, then how do we know who we are and what we are capable of?

When I began my own spiritual journey, one task was to define God in the most specific terms I could come up with. It wasn't enough just to believe or think there was a God somewhere out there. I needed a God that was infinitely powerful and creative; A God that is with me ALL the time; a God that spoke with me and listened to me; a God that counseled me when I asked; a God that surrounded and enveloped me all day long. I also needed a God that healed me when I asked for healing.

Today, I see how important this exercise has been. By creating this amazing, creative and unlimited God in my life, I have acknowledge that I too can be amazing, creative and unlimited in my life. If I had limited my concept of God, I would by definition, limit my concept of me.

So, as you go along on your path, please consider the God or Source that you have in your life. Be clear and specific on what you want from God, so that you too will be as unlimited and resourceful!

Blessings,
Lynn

What is happening?

2009-04-04T09:25:00.001-07:00

In the wake of all the recent tragedies and shootings in the United States, we will once again begin hearing the debate about gun control. Unfortunately, this debate no longer addresses the actual issue in this world and that is this: There is a spiritual disconnect in our society. Not a religious disconnect, although that is probably a residual effect, but there is a spiritual disconnect in that we have begun to believe that our happiness, peace and joy come from outside ourselves. We no longer find contentment or definition from within.

Until we address why we have abandoned any link to our spiritual selves and to source or creator, we will continue to have the kind of fear and anger that results in these kinds of "senseless acts". For the last several months, we cannot escape hearing about recession, job loss and home loss; additionally, we are fed by the media a constant diet of who we should blame for all of this. Again, our focus is outside ourselves...if we are not able to buy our happiness, then we should damn well be able to blame our unhappiness on something other than our own perceptions.

What is the answer? It is time that we look within and remember who we are. We are spiritual beings sharing a human existence or experience. Yet, we have forgotten that we are spiritual beings first and foremost. Once we remember this, we will discover that we have been given all the tools that we need to repair what is wrong.

Additionally, we must remember to look at each other not as separate entities, but as another aspect of ourselves. If we see each other as many parts of a whole, then we stop looking for the differences but focus more on ONENESS. Can you imagine this world and how loving it would be if we recognized that we are all ONE? That to hurt another living being was actually hurting ourselves? This is where we need to be.

Blessings.

Point of Reference

2009-02-18T08:07:00.000-08:00

I heard an interview today with an author who had gone to experience the training that all navy seals go through...in this case, it was how to survive in water. The idea was that if you maintain your Point of Reference (POR) when all hell is breaking loose, you will have a much better chance of surviving the hell and coming out alive and in tact!

So...I got to thinking about maintaining your Point of Reference (POR) in life. Many of us probably never think about even having a Point of Reference (POR) in life and that is why we go through our days, weeks, months and years not really knowing where we are or which way we are headed. When time passes as quickly as it does, we are suddenly surprised at where we ended up because we didn't really intend to go there in the first place! I think that is why so many of us suffer from addiction to food, drugs, money, low self-esteem, etc. We don't have a POR to use so that we get from point A to Z in tact and with something to show for it!

What is your POR? do you even know where to start to have a POR? and is this POR a place outside of you or within you that keeps you on track no matter what?

For years, church or religion provided the POR for most people, but if we think about it, church and/or organized religion also makes us focus on something outside of ourselves. The strongest PORs come from within...if we can find our true spiritual connection to what we determine G-d to be or Source is, then we are always linked and centered in a strong Point of Reference.

Because this POR comes from the inside out, it is completely defined by us and our own spiritual path or journey; it is not out there for someone else to judge or take away; it fills up that dark void inside of us that want to always remind us that we are just not good enough.

Keep your POR within you ...take time each day to reconnect to this POR and acknowledge where you are right at that moment...give thanks to your G-d or Source for being and staying connected to something so powerful that you are never alone. And, always wear comfortable walking shoes because this is quite a journey that we are all on!

Blessings!

Being Creators of Our Reality

2009-01-25T11:43:00.001-08:00

I want to share with you the following links:

http://www.spiritussanctus.com/ho_oponopono.shtml

http://www.beepworld.de/members77/ninahagendas/hooponopono.htm

http://successultranow.com/inspiration/articles/the-seven-principles-of-huna-ancient-hawaiian-healing-wisdom/

http://www.hooponopono.net

I came across these purely by chance the other day....I say by chance when I know deep down that nothing is by chance! I needed to read about this wonderful ancient healing found in Hawaii!

The basic idea is this: as creators of our own reality, we can heal and change that reality just by healing ourselves! What a powerful idea...let's say you have been having trouble with a person in your life. Most of us would decide that either we needed to talk to them and change them or just let go of them altogether. Well, in this ancient healing practice, we are taught that the only way to fix the problem with this person is to heal ourselves!!!

The Process of Ho'oponopono:
1. Bring to mind anyone with whom you do not feel total alignment or support, etc.
2. In your mind's eye, construct a small stage below you .
3. Imagine an infinite source of love and healing flowing from a source above the top of your head (from your Higher Self), and open up the top of your head, and let the source of love and healing flow down inside your body, fill up the body, and overflow out your heart to heal up the person on the stage. Be sure it is all right for you to heal the person and that they accept the healing.
4. When the healing is complete, have a discussion with the person and forgive them, and have them forgive you.
5. Next, let go of the person, and see them floating away. As they do, cut the aka cord that connects the two of you (if appropriate). If you are healing in a current primary relationship, then assimilate the person inside you.
6. Do this with every person in your life with whom you are incomplete, or not aligned.
7. The final test is, can you see the person or think of them without feeling any negative emotions. If you do feel negative emotions when you do, then do the process again.

Blessings & Release as we begin this new year.

Why Turn the Other Cheek?

2008-12-30T13:52:00.000-08:00

Why do we forgive or turn the other cheek? Is it because we were taught this in Sunday School and it is the right thing to do?

Well, maybe...but, perhaps we turn the other cheek because by doing so, we are elevating ourselves to a new, higher vibration in our dimension! Once there, we can then invite others within our dimension to elevate themselves as well!

What a wonderful gift - by being the hero, we require ourselves and others to join us on a higher spiritual plane! Just think, once we achieve this higher spiritual plane, we never have to descend to a lower plane again.

Why Forgive?

2008-12-21T06:21:00.001-08:00

I posted my exercise on forgiveness and realized that it might be worth the time to explain why we need to forgive...

When we carry around anger, resentment or fear from the past, we essentially allow the negative energy produced by those emotions to have a home in our bodies. Over time, the negative energy takes its toll on the body by becoming chronic disease or acute illness.

Most of the time, the negativity that we carry with us is based in our having become entangled in someone else's journey. We have been trying to change, rescue or save someone else and our efforts have been in vain. We forget that we cannot change anyone other than ourselves and our responses/reactions to others.

We all have a spiritual path or journey to walk in our lifetime and that journey is unique to us. No one is allowed on our path except us and we are not to walk on someone else's path. The reason for this is simple: G-d has given us a specific set of emotional, energetic & spiritual tools to use on our journeys. These tools provide everything we need to meet the trials and tribulations on our paths in order to have a sucessful outcome. This outcome may not be the one we hope for or want, but it is the one we are meant to have.

We are not given tools to meet the trials and tribulations of OTHER people's journeys! When we interfere on someone else's path, we often get that pain in the pit of our stomach...that is the area of personal power. In other words, we are trying to use our personal power or ego to affect a journey that does not belong to us...the pain we feel is a warning to us that we are not supposed to be engaging in these actions - we are on the wrong path.

If we don't realize that we are on someone else's path and it is our responsibility to get off that street, then we end up remaining in that place of pain...the pit in our stomach becomes filled with our resentment, anger and/or fear over not being able to get the result we want and that negative energy lives within a nice warm place just gathering fuel to expand out into the rest of our bodies as illness or disease. By the time we realize what has happened, we may be dealing with serious consequences.

So...much better for us to stay only on our own paths and allow others to be who they are and take their own journeys. If we have past resentments that we have not cleaned up, then we need to address them now with forgiveness...remember, we are trying to get rid of all negative energy that is threatening our well-being. So through forgiveness, we not only find emotional freedom, but energetic, spiritual and physical freedom as well. What a blessing!

Happy journeys!

Your Holiday Exercise

2008-12-19T09:32:00.000-08:00

Here is an exercise for this Holiday Season...I ask everyone to take time out to do this.

Who or what do you need to forgive the most? Yourself? Your parents? Your best friend? An Event from your Past?

Take a moment to identify this person or thing in your life and then spend about 10 minutes each day from now until the New Year, practicing forgiveness for this person or event.

If you don't know how to start, try this: surround the person, or event with blessings...see them or it wrapped up in all the beautiful light and love that you can generate. Literally surround them or it with this love and light...allow it to warm, encase, seep into and light with warm love and kindness from the inside out.

Sit with this feeling for as long as you can but at least 10 minutes each day...when you are finished, ask for whatever you believe Source or God to be to allow you to forgive this person or event in your life at this moment. Give thanks for at least three things that you can find in your life that you are grateful to have. Include yourself in this...Thank the Creator for the opportunity to offer forgiveness to this person or event and then ask to release the past.

See what happens by January 1, 2009...Be sure and share with all of us what you experience!

Blessings.

What do you think?

2008-12-02T08:11:00.000-08:00

i would like to hear what you think about this question:

what is the purpose of a spiritual journey?

Now I lay me down to sleep...

2008-12-01T09:57:00.000-08:00

i work with many clients who are looking for a shift in consciousness, but their familiarity with current situations & pain often block this shift. one of the concepts that i stress in my work is the idea that because we were born -just because all those elements of biology, genetics, etc. came together and formed only us - just because of that miracle, we are enough. we are meant to be here and as such, we are children of g-d.

i talk about this with my clients and there is always agreement. they understand the concepts intellectually, but cannot integrate them into the soul and spirit. their is so much negative chatter in their heads that they have identified only with what is wrong with them...not what is right.

so, here is something that i practice each night. when i go to bed, i always review my day and decide whether or not i behaved properly. did i treat everyone the way g-d would have wanted me to treat them? did i act as a child of g-d?

but most of all, did i treat myself as a child of g-d who is enough? did i show myself the kind of love without ego or expectation that i strive to show others? if i don't treat myself in this manner, then how in the world can i treat others with love and kindness?

remember...you are enough, just because you are here. there is a purpose for you.

Blessings & Welcome! your journey begins...

2008-11-28T15:34:00.000-08:00

i started awaken to spirit after being diagnosed with two very painful and chronic illnesses. when told that i would end up in a wheelchair before the age of forty, i had a wake-up call! i went on my own spiritual journey to understand why i suffered from depression, chronic pain and generally a distaste for life. what i found is what i now share - how to become connected to spirit and thereby connected to source or god. from here, we can heal ourselves emotionally, spiritually, mentally and physically because we are able to draw from the infinite, all powerful energy of source. we cannot do this from our human place, because most of us are simply too wounded to generate this type of power. i will share my journey and with permission the journeys of my clients in a general way. we live in a very special and crucial time when we can change the course of our lives and futures if we choose wisely. my prayer is that all of us awaken to spirit and choose the wise path.